Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer.
Sunday, December 18, 2016
10:08 PM
I'm just feeling so sad and disappointed and depressed, like, I was wrong all this time. I was wrong to think that anything and everything could and would work out, that things would be perfect, that I was making good desicions.
I so, so desperately want to be right. Partly because I'm so sick of starting over again and again, partly because I'm sick of all the false hope. I'm sick of fighting and throwing out things I just want to settle down.
I hate waiting. It just means that I'm not good enough. I'm not the answer screaming right in your face and I'm not even worth any amount of sacrifice or even thought.
I so, so desperately want to be yours.