No, I think it looked a little better on me.

Lol floorball exco elections today. Tbh imo it's no kick haha compared to Council elections/Council exco elections lol. Sigh. I really wished I could have ran. :( I really wish to become captain. :(

Sigh. I hate it when people steal my words. Yeah I know I probably write a lot of rubbish especially in my blog especially when I'm feeling an immense flow of emotions or something. Stringing together insane words which actually sound nice hah. I admit, most of my written works, essays and speeches and the like, all sound sophisticated and professional but that's about it heh. But yeah I do not appreciate my insane string of words being stolen. Idk at least ask.

Life isn't fair and I cannot be greedy. Sigh. Idk haha I think I could have answered better? But I'll give credit to some good answers. :) but yeah. Pretty upset about JH recruitment and publicity and Floorballholic. I honestly have better answers/rebuttals. But I won't put my insane string of words here of course.

So yeah I woke up at like 3am today (I slept at 12am) because the weather is so asdfgh hot even though I sleep with two fans pointing at me at speed 3 each. And I still wake up sweating. I mean I can sleep through it but it's really uncomfortable so yeah might as well wake up. Though I originally planned for 4am or 5am to eat because fasting. Because I've been eating one meal a day and I know I won't die of starvation but my mental state just can't take it haha so yeah. But ugh I swear my body insists on a maximum of 5hours of sleep a day no matter how much sleep debt there is and no matter how much I try to pay back that debt. -_-

Anyway, getting to the point because I don't want to mislead readers by thinking that I'm not posting what I originally planned to, here it is. Because while waiting for the rice to cook (yes, quite upsetting to wake up to one tiny handful of rice to eat so yeah), I shall blog/rant formally.

Why parents should not deprive their teenage children of the Internet

In this day and age, it's hard to imagine life without the Internet - in first world countries, at least. One of the greatest inventions of the 20th century, the internet has revolutionised the way we work and play. No longer do companies face huge amounts of paperwork, and no longer do gamers, or those with too much time on their hands, spend their time on classic, now out of demand, Windows games such as Pinball and Solitaire. Yes, while the Internet is a double edged sword, one side is definitely sharper than the other. And yes, while the Internet is a double edged sword, we are all swordsmen.

Getting to the point of how Internet has impacted the young, tech-savvy generation, it is beyond doubt that teenagers today account for one of the largest groups of Internet users, and also the group who make use of the Internet for a diverse range of purposes. Teenagers not only make use of the Internet for work, in this case, schoolwork and assignments, or online learning (e-learning), but also for social purposes, such as social media for social interaction and social entrepreneurship to raise social awareness about issues.

Parents, on the other hand, come from a very different background, thus, have very different views and uses of the Internet. The generation gap, though may be closing, is still existent. A large number of parents use the Internet as a work tool and also a means of communication, however, in contrast to that of children, it can be said that the usage is for a more formal and basic purpose.

While both groups have varying interests and ideals, it is important to note that parents have the superiority over children, especially in Asian countries, thus, have the power to limit their children's use of the Internet, among other things. Coupled with the perception that parents know better , and know what’s best for their children, this mindset has led parents to take action, that is, to deprive their teenage children of the Internet. Some of the more popular reasons, though shallow, cited include the assumption that teenage children do not do anything productive while on the Internet, or that the Internet does more harm than good, distracting its users rather than helping them attain maximum efficiency in completing a task. However, parents fail to realise - or chose to ignore, or refuse to believe - the implications of such actions of depriving the use of the Internet.

The use of the Internet is so greatly influential and so widely available that it is impossible for anyone to control it - unless one is the Government of China - even if they tried. In a country like Singapore, the need to stay connected is even encouraged by the Government of Singapore, with the implementation of government-sponsored Internet access around the island like Wireless@SG. Shopping malls, food and beverage outlets, schools and even places of worship also provide such services, free of charge. The decision of parents who decide to cut off the Internet access at home can be aptly described by the Malay traditional saying of "membuang garam ke laut" - literally meaning throwing salt into the sea. Such actions would only lead to even worse outcomes, as children would tend to rebel, and seek other sources of Internet access by going out, or resort to other more unconventional or illegal methods which would bring in a greater set of challenges for parents. Thus, it is, in all Singaporean-ness, a 'stupid thing to do'.

Some would be familiar with the phrase, "The Internet is a playground", which comes from the title of the bestselling debut book by David Thorne. While the book is about amusing incidents relating to the use of the Internet, it is beyond doubt that the Internet IS a playground, for Internet users to play, learn and have fun. With news giants such as BBC and local news providers such as Channel News Asia and The Straits Times stepping up to the social media platform, news is now presented in bite-sized information - ideal for the busy life of working adults and students alike. Breaking news also reach out to the population faster and more efficiently, via tweets and retweets on Twitter. Like a playground, there may be dangers lurking on the Internet, such as false information and impersonation. However, like all dangers and possible threats, it is important and necessary for those involved to take precaution and assess the risks involved. Just as dangers and failures are part and parcel of life, they should not be concealed and hidden from the Internet by means of depriving children from the Internet. After all, the best way to learn is from hands-on experience, of which the Internet is a rather rich source of, as quoted from a Chinese proverb, "I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand."

Like most technological advancements, if not all, the Internet was created for efficiency, and there are those who work more efficiently with the use of the Internet. Depriving access to the Internet would not only decrease the quality of the work produced, but also the attitude of the worker, hindering what could have been productive work sessions. The Internet is not only essential for working conditions, but also for non-working conditions. Taking breaks is important, and for some, the Internet is an outlet to relieve stress. Thus, the absence or lack of access to the Internet could and would cause greater disturbance as well as inefficiency in carrying out a particular task.

Looking at the big picture, the Internet may be a tool, but what matters even more is its user. Teenage children, the next generation, are what carries humanity’s future, hopes and dreams. That being said, with high levels of education, surpassing even that of the older generations, there is no doubt that these teenage children possess the necessary skill sets in order to face the challenges that they are facing - which is clearly different from that being faced by the older generation. Being young adults themselves, these teenagers carry a certain degree of responsibility and are aware of it. Certainly, somewhere along the way some may have fallen into the abyss of Internet addiction, the plain truth is that it is only the minority. Even if these Internet addicts do make up a larger than expected portion of the population, there are also a significant number of adults who are addicted to the Internet too, thus, parents are in no way more superior than their teenage children, to the point of denying access of the Internet.

In conclusion, while the intentions of parents to deny teenage children of Internet access may have been good, the harsh reality is that times have changed, and that parents may not necessarily know what’s best for their teenage children, especially when they have vastly different experiences and outlooks to life. Being mature individuals, teenage children are more aware than ever of the consequences of excessive Internet usage, thus, should be allowed the right to dictate their own lives and make their own choices.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
I would like to thank:
- My parents for the muse because they deprived me of the Internet for the whole of Saturday night up until Monday morning (I'm posting this outside my home, obviously).
- My family for finishing the rice and giving me no choice but to cook more (yes I NEED rice because Asian) so while waiting for it to cook I wrote this.
- The extremely hot and humid weather of Singapore for waking me up at 3am and writing this until 5am.
- The Internet, which I love. Sadly, this post was written with no Internet sources or references, hence the quality.
- My phone and Google Docs because technology. Haha you don't expect me to have written this out, pen and paper, right. (Tbh imo I'm addicted to my phone with Internet access, not Internet access in general lol.)

DISCLAIMER
This is what I would have written for General Paper examinations, had such a question been set. Thus, this is the quality of work I probably would have submitted so I am sorry for the bad English haha. Yes I am aware the quality of writing and thought gets worse like after the 6th paragraph because I stopped and continued at like 12pm. :( And I hope you readers would be as nice as my examiners and read without judgement. Please ask for permission if you intend to reproduce/feature/quote my work. Thanks.

PROFILE OF WRITER
Just the usual teenager addicted to the Internet (I admit, but I don't think the effects are very detrimental. Yet.) I am Asian. I got B+ for Language Arts for Junior High 3 and 4 (secondary 3 and 4 equivalent), and am taking Higher 2 English Language and Linguistics at A-level and am currently getting an S (sub-pass) grade for General Paper (oops).

Ugh. So I meant to post this on Sunday but it so happens that I don't have 3G/4G and due to some unfortunate circumstances, I don't have wifi either so ya.

Ugh. Idk man I know I spend a lot of time on my phone socializing/using social media but, hey, everyone my age does this too. Ya sure there are those who are obviously smarter than I am and probably plan their time better than I do but, hey, that's them and I'm me. I'm not productive at home and that's that. Whether or not there's internet or not. Aaand hey, isn't using phone what everyone at home does? Why me? Just because I socialise instead of buying stuff online? Instead of stalking and complaining about people showing off on Facebook? Instead of watching stupid videos on Youtube? Aaand there are those who are worse off than me. Like, hey, at least I'm not addicted to drugs or computer games, right???

Ugh. And now I am reminded of why I'd rather be at boarding. And now I know why some people rant about it sucks being at home. I'd rather study at a nice Starbucks, with frappes for company, or at Macs until my hair smells of fries. And now, I think, if people were to ask me to choose between studying in local universities or overseas, I'd say overseas. Also because the weather here is crazy. I cannot even sleep well with two fans on can you imagine that's how hot it is.

Ugh. Leaving home a lot earlier because what is there to do at home lol. Home is where the internet connects automatically. Ya right. Not so much of a home but a house maybe. Actually leaving at 6.30am is reasonable lor. Since I always leave at 7.15am and reach NUS at 9.15am so I leave 45min earlier to reach earlier???

Ugh. So ya life sucks, not because I'm sulking and not because I don't have internet, but because I would rather be independent but I cannot.

At the end of the day you can tell me I'm wrong 'cause you went through all of the trouble.

Lol. Top the class? In diploma? Lol. Joke. Idk man you can't always top everything. Just because I did so before - in a couple of aspects too - doesn't mean that I can now. My topping classes days are over man. Pfft. To think that I was proud to say that my parents never pressured me to do well (which actually makes me do well because only I pressure myself). I am kind of disappointed. Sigh education system these days.

Aye not going to dampen my mood. Super good training day :) the best in a long time actually. But then again, didn't train that much in a long time LOL. But you get my point. :) today, I played with a team I can safely say, is willing to share my sweat, bruises and injuries. And cheered for me. That made me very happy. :) though I did make a couple of mistakes ugh. Gameplay was good though. And apparently my stickwork skills still exist HAHA but tbh imo very rusty. :( injured myself today lol. Quite the genius to fast today and not even eat in the morning and still go for training lol. I didn't die. Yet.

MATCHA IS MY ONE TRUE LOVE. I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME WHERE IS MY RUNAWAY LOVE. Ugh matcha powder sold out so saddd. :(

I don't know man. Do people even appreciate my efforts.

Oh well I really wanted to blog but couldn't find the time to cos really really busy!!! So yah, blogging at 1am :/ but I had a one hour nap in the evening so okayyy I guess.

But I have my diploma thing exam tmr and I haven't studied D; so I hope I'm not soo screwed?

Can you believe it the second week of June is over omg this really barely feels like a holiday at all. Besides a holiday meaning going overseas (or Malaysia since that's where I only go lol) a holiday to me also means mugging at Macs at Loyang Point/White Sands/Pasir Ris SRC but noooo travelling from east to west each day is no joke let me repeat this for the countless number of times because it is true!!! Research is fun though. :) but i don't really have time for anything else. :)

Come to think of it, ever since you broke my heart and left, I've been a really heartless person. Sorry for burning anyone, if I did/if you felt that I did. :( I really don't mean to (I hope, depends on who you are) but oh well. Letting this affect my life too much. Haha like really who would even have the slightest, remote interest in me, when the person I trusted most, left me. So yeah I don't know and I don't really care. I treat people the way they treat me. But as for returning feelings, no. Because that's where I draw the line for being nice. Because nothing ever works out. Because there's no point of being 'together' with anyone. Because everyone leaves. Because in the end, everyone ends up alone.

Still broken. Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone. Hah. Doesn't mean I'm not lonely when I'm not alone. Time heals everything, but some wounds just keep reopening.

Well if that's the case then I'm the one to blame.

I think I need to stop this reciprocating thing sigh but I cannot help it. :( sometimes I feel that I should stop being nice. Because everyone just takes advantage of nice-ness. Ohman I'm sounding as pessimistic as my tutor. :( but seriously. I don't mind me being used, because that's my fault, compared to people I love and care about being used. That hurts.

Sigh. It's nice if people like you? Is it, really? More of a stressful time. Gawd. Ever since primary school. How much more must I avoid? Avoid people who like me, people who are nice to me omg that's just mean I'm sorry. Sigh. I just don't want to get too close to anyone now. Because it's highly likely that if someone likes me I'll more or less force myself to like that person back because I feel so baddd omg do you understand that feeling??? I'm begging, don't like me if you can't love me because I hate getting hurt for stupid reasons again and again.

And tbh I guess that's why my life is in a mess. I need to stop reciprocating. Not everybody is truthful when they say things. Not everybody is nice. Everybody will use you.

And tbh I don't find anyone really worth my time now. I don't know. Is that a good thing? I guess. No crushes, no eyecandies. No NJ ones anyway. (Update: wow NJ ones really suck: those that I've had unlucky experiences with sigh) We only like what we don't have. We only like what we can't get. Sigh VJ.

Someone, someday. I will find one.

Tbh imo selections would have been better than elections. I mean like if we really want talent management, the teachers know best. If it works for JrC, it would work for SrC too. Aiya but whatever lor, it's not that I'm sad, I'm actually happy that I decided to run in the first place. Because I would regret not running. But yeah whatever lor, don't get then don't get lor. I tried. I never even expected to get into Council anyway so I'm really grateful for that already. I mean I'm not like those people who pick up the form amd confirm know that "Oh I pick up this form I sure will get in" kinda thing. Tbh the only reason I picked up the form was because other people believed in me. Sure, I can believe in myself, but what's the point if others don't? So yeah I kinda have the same mindset towards exco elections so yeah. It's fated anyway, I'm too busy anyway. People who wanna know can know lol juggling diploma and Council and studies and CCA and H3 isn't easy I guess and I don't want to burn out because ultimately studies are the epitome of a student's life HAHA.

Like omg Ms Tan wants me to pass math. I want to pass math too. I cannot let so many people down. Math and chem are my must pass subjects because I cannot let my tutor down. Cannot. *haha such motivation I have* econs was a killer though. But it could have been worse if I didn't invest in that $16 econs tys!!!

So yeah. I take this passing day in hopes that people voted, not for their friends, but for who is truly suitable. Because this whole elections thing is so rigged. Both presidential and exco elections. It's even easier than predicting Floorball top four teams this year. Tbh imo.

Congrats to all who got in. May we bring glory to the 47th.

Yay JunHeng's and my lockscreen :)

Today was a weird day really. It got from good to bad I guess.

Good things! I woke up late but was still early for research yay. Nice lunch hahaha. Finished my Council speeches YAYZ I FEEL SO LIBERATED. And I managed to actually suggest something intellectual to my mentor yay I hope his impression of my IQ level increased by a few points HAHA. Oh and good hair day (for most of the day). :D

Bad things lulz. Saw an ACJC couple at Bouna Vista MRT there haha so sweet yknow he got for her a cute stuffed toy gah but well they were cute :) :( went to Popular to buy stuff and I SAW SO MANY JOHN GREEN BOOKS OMG but guess what? I bought Econs ten year series instead LOL #truemugger because my Econs is dying T.T but anyway John Green books are so expensive I wanted to buy Allegiant too sigh I WILL LOVE YOU IF YOU BUY THEM FOR ME. (Depends if I love you or not lol but the thing is urgh don't think I'll ever love someone ever again lol much pessimist but I am so sad.)

Wanted to take ootd picture at IMRE because cool mirror lifts!!! But meh. So here is a toilet ootd with my Popular plastic bag LOL because I figured that it would be a waste to not take one on such a good (aka above average) hair and outfit day.

So yup Chem makeup tomorrow I hope I do well please. Although I'm not studying much help.

Aye GP was okay I hope I didn't write out of point though. :( I used my research topic as an example LOL see guys you learn useful stuff so join research :))) but then again. Research all day everyday I think my mentor thinks I is stupid help. :(

Lol I'm quite uhh weirded (???) by the fact that the first time I listened to Pompeii I didn't like it omg I am so sorry now I feel guilty for liking it :(

Guysss I am not with Bryan please lol stop asking.

Double post today because I'm happy I think? Lol idk man it's times like these when I'm really stressed I laugh at myself and my misery (and I thought this is normal but apparently not???) 

But yeah anyway I decided to wear a dress today because it's Juneee! Loljk I'm wearing a dress because I feel like. Actually because I have too many clothes and I don't have time to wear them. :( and I wasted so much time today online window shopping omg. This post makes me sound like a very girly girl. To add on... #nofilter lol ohmy what am I doing with life. I can't do math at all omg I am so stupid help.

Oh I also wasted (or invested) time in decorating my floorball journal!! Only because I spilt Red Bull in my bag yesterday (ikr genius) and wet everything sooo :'( see my Twitter!! :)

And I also wasted/invested time downloading songsss hahaha Somewhere in Neverland - All Time Low is nice tooooo have I said this before? Hahahha sometimes I wish my name was Wendy then this song would be so nice like dedicated to me la. But I like my name lol if people don't mispronounce anyway. Hinthint: Nice song to dedicate to a girl LOL. And omg not again my thoughts are drifting to you. I thought boyfriends read they're girlfriend's blogs and whatnot to understand them better or something but you never did gah. I talk a lot (too much) about/directed to you.

Ok I really need to do math and everything help. 

WOW IT'S JUNE ALREADY but guess what hahaha no holidays for me. Guess what hahaha exams in June. Idk man it's June and I'm so stressed about school and education in general???

YAH SO ANYWAY IT'S JUNE RIGHT I really need to start umm keeping fit??? LOL. I just saw a stupid slimming ad and that 21 year old woman is 48kg (but she still looks fat imo) AND I'M ALSO 48KG OMG AND I'M 17. And my sister is 21 and she is also 48kg help. It's like in 2 years I gained 8kg yknow how depressing that is. It's like eating my cat. Even my cat lost weight (from 8kg to 7.3kg). Omaigad since it's the start of a new month I can now start my abs one month workout thing HAHA. (The last time I did it I think I stopped at day 23 lol much sad.) But oh well why do I even care urgh nobody to look pretty for now I can just be fat and pimple-y lulz.

I know I (think) I said I'd stop counting but week 3. It has been three weeks without you. I don't know how I survive. I don't know how I'm going to survive. That feeling when you give your all for nothing? Yeah. So used to everything coming down to nothing; used to silence that cuts me to the core. Sobs. Musn't think or I'll cry again. Sobs. Why do my thoughts keep drifting back to you.

Aaand here's the part where I pick myself up and tell myself that I hate you lol much lies. :( but some of the lies are becoming truths I guess? I don't love you I don't need you I don't ever wanna see you again. Oh well. It has come to the point where I wouldn't want to get back with you and it kinda makes me sad. Because *sigh* I invested so much in us.

Okay whatever since it's June let's begin afresh :) just one and a half years more and life would be a lot better (at least for awhile). So yups. I've been taking too many pictures of sunrises and it would be a waste for them to stay in my phone (with fast depleting memory) so I might as well post them here...? Yayyy perks of living in Pasir Ris hah. Nice sunrises every morning. :)

Funny how we never got to do these romantic things like watching the sunrise and chilling at the beach (?) I mean like it's not even far from our houses. Lol you never even ever send me home (not that I ever asked and not that I wanted to but you get my point) even though we lived like <5km away from each other??? It would have been nice but aye I guess you're the self-centred kind and I wonder why I was too blind to see that. Yeah whatever man someday I'll find someone better. Better for me, not better than you. There might be a difference, who knows. But yeah someday. Feeling pretty sick of all this love and relationship cra* (lack of a better word with the same effect and I sensored it because I am minding my language). Yeah it doesn't feel nice being alone but what's the point of being together if it never lasts. Much pessimist. Very truth.

"She said if he's looking for love, she don't wanna be found."