I miss being young.
When there was no such thing as algebra.
When the only competition was a colouring competition.
When you didnt need short skirts to fit in.
When holding hands with the opposite sex was only for lining up in twos.
When "i dont friend you" was only cause you stole someone's eraser.

We dont talk anymore. And you know what the saddest thing is? We used to talk everyday. I miss you yet i dont.

Stupid. Its all your fault. It always is! Pfft. Now i have nothing to do at all -.- NOTHING.

I like you D:

Waah scary shit. Im sorry! No offence intended (really there was none) i dont wanna make a bad impression when you dont even know me :/ haizz i hope he didnt say anything (bad) about me :/

Maple seems to be most unlaggy at 1am -.- and i have to sleep by 12am dammit.

I dont understand guys like you. All you do is flirt. Flirt with 'popular' girls. You are so blind you cant see the inner beauty.

And you forget all the promises that you made with me, but baby i didnt.
Who was the one who accompanied you to the piano room and to lunch that day?
Who was the one who carried your bag to class when you had to go morning singing?
Who was the one who lent you a phone to call your family during boarding?
And all these you forget. True, i havent been nice. But so have you. I know youve waited for me to apologize but im not gonna do that. Ever. Well, i explained my sidr of the story. You know it. But you never tell me yours. Not yet maybe? Im waiting.

You. Remember the 'letter' you wrote for me last year? Be strong like Aggie Ling Ya Qi. My foot. Everyone is with you. ME, Victoria, Eunice, Farah, Hyun Hee, Sherlyn, Jolene, Petrina, Amanda, Ethan, Kiran, John. What crap. And you said not to throw it away. I didnt. And now you dont even acknowledge my presence. Very well then, let the guilt devour you like how the lonliness pulled me down.

Friends suck.

I went ASGF and forgot to buy permenant 6th Anniversary package -.- oh well. Got so much freebies :D hmm. There seems to be little homework this holiday :D More maple :D I made a wildhunter O.o BigBang sucks :X everything is so confusing. Did they have to change the map layout and stuff?! Ahwell wadeva. Im back from Malaysia (': Im glad its overrr :D And they made us shop at those horribly expensive shops -.- Anyway, I shall be mean and heartless in my next post. Stay tuned. F3

Urgh. I just typed a super long blog post and it disappeared -.- anw long story short, im first to present in term3 for some crap recital -.- i havent packed for malaysia trip ): school trip. For five days. Aaah, no internet ): maple is weirdddd after bigbang. I was killing lv30 stuff with my lv73 character and suddenly 3% increase O.o my gpa is screweddd ): my mum says if i get 4.0+ i'll get an iPhone (: but i dont want iPhone4 whiteee. Its old. And iPhone5 would only come out like one year from now? Gaaah. I want starbucks!! The 50% off frappe thing is over ): and i only got the offer once ): after queuing for an hour :/ ah well, im broke. Sarah owes me $3.90, i owe victoria $1, i owe amanda $1 and i owe eunice $2. I SHALL REMEMBERRRR!

I know how it feels like to be insecure.
I wish he had your personality.
I'm tired of all this.
I mean what I say.
And I don't write lies on my blog.
Goodbye.

As I'm staring through this fire, it's too late to make you mine
So far from where we started, so far from what we wanted
And as both our worlds fall down, we have lost and we have found
So far from where we started, so far from what we wanted

Where was I when the rockets came to life
And carried you away into the alligator sky
Even though I'll never know what's up ahead
I'm never lettin' go, I'm never lettin' go

I made sushi today :D ahaha it was okay (: damn niceeee xD its on fb :D or soon to be anyway (:


I'm sad. Dont just leave me like this!! ): I'd do anything for you.

How come you dont care about me anymore? ): I should stop liking people. It seems that they all know. And in the end, it ends up like this. Again and again. I dont want us to fall apart. Please.

I wont screw up. Im saying this again. Im falling for you again. I hope you dont mind. Youre a nice guy. God, help me :/

Hmm. To the two people who should be tgt.

Guy: if a 19-year-old 2.4 timing 10min 20sec, then what about Kiran (9.30+min) and Joshua (10min)? O.o And theyre FIVE years younger...

Girl: Didnt know you look so different last time D: But as always, still very pretty (:

And maybe its good that both of you arent tgt. He might hurt her. Though he was nice. And maybe its all fated that me and him were never meant to be. Even friends. Goodluck to you.

Me, rising_star97. Him, starkiller1997.

I loved you. And maybe now, I still do.

Cause without you holding my heart,
I'm falling apart.

Everytime I see your face,
My heart takes off on a high speed chase.

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

I thought I saw you again ): Why are you with some random, fat and ugly girl? I miss you. You belong with me. How can you move on so easily?

My darling, I miss you,
My darling, who knew.

Gross.

I was listening to the radio on 91.3fm and the song playing was Who Says - Selina Gomez. Then it was Party in The USA - Miley Cyrus. So I changed to 98.7fm. It was Who Says - Selina Gomez again -.-

My sister sneezed and her snort landed on me -.-

And I just wasted my Lyric Legend gold notes on Miley Cyrus thanks to my sister -.-

Hello Seattle - Owl City on Lyric Legend, 22 of 25 stars (:

Last day of boarding ): So saaaad T.T
Happy day today (: Brought so many things for check out ):
Nyeh. I shall sleep now (:
Alls well that ends well (:

Today, God thought me the most important lesson.

In life, there are only three things you need:
1. Faith
2. Love
3. Family

All of which, are actually, interlinked.

Faith. Trust. Believe. Belief. Religion. Without God, I am nothing. God is the one who gives me strength, obstacles, happiness, sadness, everything. Just ask, and you will receive. Believe that everything happens for a reason -- a reason that only time will tell what. Because God will never give me something which I do not deserve, good or bad. Believe that whatever happens to me, I can overcome it. Because God will never give me something I cannot handle. I have Faith in God.

God gave me Love. Love is the strength which carries me, day by day. Love for myself, love for my family, love for my religion, and most importantly, Love for God. Because Love, conquers all.

God gave me Family. A Family who would Love me for who I am. A Family who has Faith in me no matter what. And for that, I Love my Family, and have Faith in them. Because without them, I would not have came a long way from where I started out.

Because I have Faith in God to give me the strength to carry on. Because Love guided my way. And because Family is the one who made me realise, my life is worth living for, no matter what.

Someday, if Fate comes knocking on your door, welcome him. Because he might bring a Friend who would have Faith in you and Love you. And, if God-willing, he would become part of your Family.

But beware, he said. Friends may become Foes. That Friendship may become Hatred. But through it all, stand by Faith, Love and Family. Because then, God will save you.

Unbreak my heart
Say you love me again
Undo this hurt you caused when you walked out the door
and walked out of my life
Uncry this tears
I cried so many years
Unbreak my heart

Council Investiture today :D Congratz Teresa for getting into SrC President (: Truth is, I didnt vote :/ well, if I did have the time I would have voted for her anw (: Haizz at times like this I really wanna join Council :/

Screwed up. My GPA is so fcked up.

Yesterday I went for Ikebana workshop (: It was fun :D Lols Japanese Flower Arrangement :/ Thor is niceee! :D

Wells I offered you but you refuse. Not my loss. Haha you let your guard down (: Whatever. Free ice pops no more :P

Rawr! I know this feeling :/ Jealousy over little things. I hope you dont know. Yet. Damn me ):

I wanna eat sushi D: Actually, I wanna make sushi O: My life is awesome yeah (: I want you so bad.

I'm just a holy fool
Oh baby he's so cruel
But I'm still in love with judas, baby~ <3

I cant take it anymore. Ive cried over you for two years now. Its time to let go and say goodbye. Is this what puppy love really is? I was so proud to be with you. Maybe too proud. Maybe too naive. And that night i saw you, you didnt even smile. You didnt even look at me. I tried to stop my tears and fix my broken heart. Did you forget those times when we were meant for each other? I miss your smile. I miss your company. I miss your love. I miss you. All the things which were once mine
Please forgive me. I was wrong all along.

Maybe you and I, unfulfilled desires.

I cant stand those people around you. Why are they so close to you? And suddenly, i feel so far away. Truth is, i like you. But i'm just gonna let it fade. Imma let it die and regret. Regret not telling you, and watch you slip out of my grasp. And then again, i'll regret telling you too. Im lovesick.

No thanks (: Faggots and bitches dont have a place here. And why the hell are you here? Dont like me? Gtfo. Id rather not our lives cross ever again. This is why i hate PAP. Too much foreign "talent".

Today is a happy day!
I redeemed myself. Halfway. :D
Can't wait for next week! :D
There's formal dinner too :D
I memorized all the guitar chords :D
I ate a delicious red apple today! :D

Damn MapleSEA BigBang is coming too soon! ): I mean like Episode 3 alreadyyy! Gosh, I'm gonna spend a long, long time downloading the client -.-

Me: hey good luck :/
Him: thank you

Did you forget who I was? Or did I forget who I am to you now?
Even the "Haha thanks :)" would have been enough.

Phew. Three hours spent changing my blogskin -.- This is my third blogskin in my entire blog history :D I'll miss my old ones :'( I remember my first one was stars and the second was yupps, D.Gray-Man :D And this is just some random thing ): But the reason I changed my blogskin was cause now its more reader-friendly :D I mean, if you're using Windows Mobile, iPhone/iTouch or Android, you will now be able to read my blog at ease :D I am such a nice blogger I care for my readers :'D

Anyway, thinking back, I could have said more during Blame Game. But truthfully, it was boring shit. So yeah, I could have said like:
Dogs: Thanks to the internet Comrade Napoleon has provided...
Me: Objection! False Cause! There is insufficient proof that there is a presumed casual link between chickens  living on other farms and chickens living on Animal Farm. Therefore, it is a faulty link/relationship!
Ah, I could have been so smart. Or even:
Pigs: We have decided that the chickens should be expelled!
Me: Imagine this, comrades. Animal Farm without chickens! We would not have sufficient food due to the fact that the chickens' eggs had previously been used for buying food! I therefore suggest that no animal should be expelled, as each one of us has our strengths and part to play!
Ah well, soo smart. But I take time to think. Unfortunately.

I like guys who like me. I like guys who think I'm pretty/cute/beautiful from the bottom of their hearts. Got a problem? And yes, part of me dies when they move on. I know its best for you but, I just cant help it :'( Its saddening. Well, I wish I could turn back time and make you feel alright. Make me feel alright. Cause somehow, a part of me still lives with you, and I cant stand seeing you smile for another.

Yay (: I love long weekends. For the first time, I had practically nothing (school-related) to do :D
Saturday - Bought my beautiful formal dinner dress <3
              - Collected my beautiful guitar from Deming <3
Sunday - Went to the beach and built a beautiful sandcastle with my sister <3
            - Dropped my beautiful phone in seawater </3
Monday - Went to John Little Expo Sale and bought beautiful clothes <3
The end. Nahh. I have lots more to say (:

I am such a procrastinator. Too lazy to blog ): And maybeee, when I find enough time, inspiration and energy, I'll change my blogskin~ :D Anyway, my dress is beautiful (: Bought from Tampines1 with Khairul (: Its a wonderful place! Anw, that was after I collected my beautiful guitar from Deming :D It was a scary encounter but pretty much what you would expect from a typical 14-year-old obsessed with older guys (not thaat old) and self-concious about everything. So yeah. He was nice though (: Reminds me of Andrew the Student Council Guy O.o

Sunday~ I think my parents want more "family-bonding" thing so yeahh. We went to the park. Beach. Whatever. It was fun till I dropped my phone. It still works though but for safety precautions, I'm not using it. Instead, I'm using a crappy obsolete-for-a-smartphone phone. And in my ever so short life, I've used around 5 phones ._. Heck, I want an iPhone5. I don't care about iPhone4 WHITE. Its just a colour for goodness sake. I ate Tom Yum Soup for dinner (: It was delicious but too much for me to handle though ): But still enjoyable (:

Monday, I went shopping again. I love shopping O.o And I love my guitar <3 I SHALL PERSEVERE NO MATTER WHAT! :D Though I suck now :'( I will try to play uhh Viva La Vida and Mine someday :'(

Whee~! I think the weekend made me super-duper happy (: I wonder why... Seriously. Ohwell, sometimes, its best to see the bright side of life (: But I see both anw. One thing I like about being happy is that I have nothing to write about (: Just random ramblings about how boring/good life is.

But sometimes, my posts are so damn long cause I have a bad/sad life ;( Like, boarding is ending! D; Nyahaha! So, down to the horrible stuff I write which make me seem damn heartless~ ;D

Seriously, pretty? Beautiful? Hear it from a man. No, you're not deaf. Its cause no guy has ever said that to you from the bottom of their heart. And if they do say it, its cause they'd rather say it than hear your ear-piercing screams -.- Not that I'm boasting, its a fact. You said it yourself. I mean like, why glare when you have small eyes that look hardly open? Accept the fact, you lose. And one more thing, "Who wants to be in my group?" Epic fail. Stop acting like a drama queen. And stop over-estimating your popularity.

To end off a pissed-off post, I shall write something happy :D

Aggie gave me two frozen grapes today, as in Tuesday (: At long last, the nicest person in the world is nice to me again (: Its a relief that finally some people don't just "go with the flow". Meaning if somebody hates me, doesn't mean that you have to hate me too ): I mean, I didn't even do anything wrong to you or insult you. And since you ignored me, you expect me to talk to you? And even before all this, I was never part of the stupid clique. I tried. But it doesn't matter now, does it? You guys don't even care about me in the first place. Glad I realised that? Yeah me too. Well, stupid arrogant people don't deserve so much credit to my post inspirations ;( The point is, I'm happy cause you actually care for me. Even if its a little (: I think I'll repay that kindness and give you a frozen-- ice pop (:

"And I just can't keep living this way so starting today I'm breaking out of this cage. I'm standing up. I'mma face my demons. I'm manning up. I'mma hold my ground. I've had enough now. I'm so fed up. Its time to get my life back together right now." 
— Eminem