Just Another Regret.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
3:14 PM
Wow you sure ruin my day. Guess what. This is NOTHING. All my life I've been treated like this. I can live like this. So it doesn't matter what you do,
friend. I cant stand people like this. You think you're the only one hurt? Well, LIVE WITH IT. I'm not asking much from you. All I ask for is for you to be my friend. To give me some attention at times. But no, I call you, you ignore me. I walk away, you get upset. Those times we spent together are NOT countless. The times when you actually interact with me are only when I'm in this so called 'clique'. I know I'm not the kind who talks a lot. I'm not the kind who makes fun of people a lot. I'm the kind who would actually sleep early, study more, play less and be nice to everybody. Yeah, you might do the same. But if you do, why am I so different from all the others? It hurts you know. It hurts having to try to fit in. It hurts trying to laugh it off when people make fun of me and call me a loner. It hurts trying to please people and get them to be my friend. I have no best friends, only friends whom I cant rely on.
But Do I Make You Proud?
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
9:20 PM
Drama sucks. I hate being the extra waitress -.- Hehe at least the hot seating thing was PERFECT~! (: I think its cause I lie too much I can practically become a professional liar T.T and thats why my brain worked too fast I didn't even know what I was saying :/ well one good thing is that I don't have to say anything (: and strain my (loud) voice ;D anw, too many ppl are getting sick D: I'm scared. My bf hates me my ex hates me. I'm sorry.
Hope It Gives You Hell.
12:56 PM
IHATESHOOTIHGIHATESHOOTINGIHATESHOOTING.
What the hell.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
12:15 AM
In boarding, I learn how to:
1. Sleep late
2. Lie
3. Skip homework
4. Fail tests
5. Play more
6. Bathe fast
And most importantly,
7. Waste food and electricity.
Like Falling Stars.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
9:52 PM
Oh help me. I cant help myself from watching d.gray-man ): its so awesomeeee. And Allen is so hot :D aaah! I cant help but fall in love <3 even in primary 5, even in JH2 :D But anw, it loads damn freaking slow -.- So I’m only at episode 36 :/ THEY SHOULD MAKE A SEASON TWOOOOOO! Haha anyways, boarding is killing me. Like wtf I sleep at 2AM -.- And the helllotta homework and projects. And who gives a damn about shooting now. But if I quit then what do I join next year? D: Ohnoo. Just kill me already. The only thing that makes me look forward to tmr is Council of Four HAHAHA :D ad d.gray-man. And music xD Ahaha GA is damn fun :D ohgreat drama next Saturdayyyyy~ Can you believe it? I’m supposed to be the extra waitress and I used to get to say one line and now IVE BEEN DEMOTED FROM ONE LINER TO NO LINER T.T not fairrrrrrr! And John says my role is great -.- and hey my voice isn’t thaaat soft ^^
I used to be lovedrunk.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
6:45 PM
Do you know how sickening it is when someone steals your air rifle just cause you weren’t there to say that its yours and they claim it as theirs?? And now you have to BORROW your own gun. Seriously, its not fair. And I’m a better shooter. So anyway, shooting nationals and HomeTeamNS Invitational Shoot coming up and guess what? I feel like quitting shooting. Seriously, wtf is this? My gun okay. And suddenly, I’m the only person who actually needs to borrow a gun -.- How the hell do you expect me to train? And last year I was the best JH1 shooter. And suddenly someone who flirts with the seniors and whatnot gets into competitions. GETS HER OWN GUN. Gets her own glove. Soon probably her own suit. Her own locker. A new gun. Seriously, this is racist.
I'm flying without wings.
12:10 AM
I don't even know why I go shooting nowadays. So today is JH2 training camp, from 8.30am-2.30pm. And guess what, I'm gunless, sitting in the range wasting my time typing this out. No gun. No glove. Nothing. Sometime I wonder why I'm still here.
Cause I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all
Saturday, March 12, 2011
5:44 PM
YAY boarding is coming :D Apparently boarding is the only highlight of my year. Besides holidays of course. Anyway, March holidays is gonna suck. So much homework and projects. Too many rather. I'm tired T.T Yesterday was track meet. As usual, stupid Terra got second last. I love Lignum. That morning I took bus 39 to Yishun Stadium. And knowing me, I obviously had no clue where to alight :P BUT LUCKILY, a LIGNUM guy saved my life :D haha actually just cause he took the same bus as me >< And after track meet we went to watch Rango :D We meaning me, yanyu, mengyuan, sherlyn, amanda, petrina, john and ethan (: It was enjoyable hahaha (: I wanna watch Red Riding Hood (: Looks interesting~ But ohwells, homework and projects just ruin my life ): Yes so anyway, BOARDING!!! <3
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
8:52 PM
Sometimes I just feel like giving up. This life is like solo. I don't even remember the times when I had true friends. I miss those days when I was free and happy. This is killing me. And when I look at myself, I'm amazed at how well I'm living my life right now. Acting like nothing's wrong, moving on, hurting inside, walking past faces I used to know.
And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind.
8:21 PM
I shouldn't have done it. I feel so dirty. And I wish life was easy. Why does it come down to this? I don't like her. I don't like them. I like him. He doesn't like me. I shouldn't care. Wtf is wrong with me. And now I wonder if I ever crossed your mind.
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
8:16 PM
I feel so agitated. Give me a sign.
