So there was a stupid power failure in my house today so I'm like-.-

Anyways, I wanted to blog so much during the power failure but now I forgot. Grah.

OHYA. So I was listening to Party Like A Rockstar - Quick Quick Danger, and guess what! They're a SINGAPOREAN BAND!! Omgomg. The first Made in Singapore music that is worthy of a certain class. Though it sounds suspiciously like Haven't Had Enough - Marianas Trench... or rather, These Kids Wear Crowns singing Haven't Had Enough._.

Some people make really good lyric videos O:

Grahh. School is killing me. Sure I haven't failed anything graded this year. Yet. Zzz. And it feels like an achievement already.

I'm an angel with a shotgun fighting till the war's won I don't care if heaven won't take me back. I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe, you know you're everything I had. And I wanna live not just survive tonight. They say before you start a war you gotta know what you're fighting for. Well baby you are all that I adore, if love is what you need, a soldier I will be.

GRAHH OMG WHY DO I KEEP PRESSING UNFOLLOW FOR IHNEWS306 SCREW THISSSSS! Now I'll have to wait till tmr ):

Bleh. Had 2hr sleep last night. 4hr sleep the night before. And every night before that for the whole week. Lol my head is throbbing but I don't feel sleepy XD

Omg i feel so damn cheated. Kern just smashed my bym and I got kicked out of alliance? Fine my bym not that pro and kick me then kick lor. BUT WHY DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING KILL MY YARD.

Oh and actually, Angel With A Shotgun is a nice song. Not at all like how I seem to portray it now.

Ahaha. I wish.

Boy we've had a real good time and
I wish you the best on your way eh eh
I didn't mean to hurt you
I never knew we'd fall out place eh eh

I have something that I love long long
But my friends keep on telling me there's something wrong
That I miss someone
And eh there's nothing else I can say.

Ahahah. I am so foolish. Again. Haiz. Don't see the point in anything anymore.

Ohwell. Anyways, AEP pics for ya~ first lesson :) crazy things we had to draw._. and yeah I'm not very good )):

Gruhh. What's wrong with me :/ Slept at 9pm ytd and I'm feeling sleepy now ): Lol I think I finally found a sense of urgency in doing my work._. Tonight  has been the most productive night in a long, long time ><

Justin Bieber - Boyfriend is out!! <3 <3 <3

Okay so for the past two nights I've been eating really horribly like having bars of chocolate for dinner. Grah. Should stop. My teeth starting to feel bad :/

Tmr school health check. There goes my backbone T.T Sobs. I can only consciously sit up straight :/

Yay today went to check my eyes AND IT FRIGGIN STAYED THE SAME :D :D so I'm guessing my right eye should be 225+ degrees and my left eye is 175! :D

LOL this post is about my various health issues O.o

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday but I realised some bigger dreams of mine.

Sure it hurts. But at least I'm satisfied. Finally hearing it for myself. Finally believing. Finally knowing who I'm supposed to be.

Have you ever loved and lost somebody? I don't mean breakup and relationship shit.

Its just... Empty. I feel so lost. And I keep thinking, "Have I done enough?" "Did I do the right things?" And somehow I feel sad. No, I didn't cry. But I'm sad... Memories are flooding back. Old memories. Do I feel guilt? Do I feel regret?

It makes me think. How easy it is for God to make things happen. Keep replaying things back in my head. Regret. But not sure if I should feel happy and proud of all the things I managed to do. Afterall, its the last that counts. And boy I sure flunked it. Regret. Not sure.

Lol. What am I doing. Fine. If that's what you want so be it.

Haiz. Shall not bother myself with negative thoughts when I know there's nothing I can do about it. Even if there was, there's no point. Watching from over here its hardly worth competing.

Thanks Ethan :)

So whatever. I'll tell you a story! :D

Today was some School Emergency Exercise thing. It was funny when they said someonesomeome was last seen in the bio lab XD and that's where the "accident" occurred LOL. So yep. Only had Malay lesson and half an hour IH :D which has some stupid Twitter assignment which is, well, stupid.

Then Ethan, me and Cheryl ran out of school! We were the first out of school! Since vcheng said we could only leave at 1230 and it was like 1110 when we were dismissed SO WE RANNNNN :D never have I reached home so early in my life :'D nj life of course. Though I wasted my day away as usual~ T.T

Best part! While in Circle Line train, I met Takalah Tan :D some ex-njcian who graduated in 1985 around there I think :D what an interesting person! Lol I feel so bad cos I was tempted to sell to him my Funtasia tickets :X but hmm. Funny. Thought I heard about him somewhere before O.o anyways! Go see this! :D Aah I am so inspired!!! XD http://www.inspiring-quotes-and-stories.com/takalah-tan.html BTW IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME GO AND TRY FIND SOME STUDENT COUNCIL ARCHIVE!

Today I decided to listen to Hummingbird Heartbeat - Katy Perry. After a very very long time. Haiz.

You give me the hummingbird heartbeat.

Today is Essay Day. Imma spam all my essays today. Goodluck to me. Haiz. Help meeee :/ I'm so friggin stressed that I ate a curry cup noodles, one bar of expired chocolate, M&Ms which I think are expired also, a slice of smoked cheese and drank h2o._. oh screw this!

Yawnn. Today is a tiring day ): Went shooting~ shot not bad luhh. I wonder which is worse: Not washing my hand after using that stinking glove or washing my hand with the cheapo school soap-.-

I wanna sleeeeep ): Ohgod. I keep thinking today is Wednesday :/ holiday y u no stay longerrrr ): siao la. Still got a crapload of homework T.T

Okay I'm sick of birthday cakes after eating half a cake+ last night :X

Ytd was so fun LOL. Me, Emma, Justin, Jazzmen, McCoy, Wayne and Weixuan went to watch John Carter :D (wow I unconsciously put it in alphabetical order! :D oh almost LOL. Whatever :P) not bad luhh^^ hehee silly 7ppl class reunion. As usual XD anyways, we spent most of our time walking around deciding where to go haha! And slacked at macs without buying anything XD

Oh. Ytd heavy rain made me fall at the busstop near my house ): paiseh ):

Urghhh. Homework is haunting me :/

Zzz I still fail at the lucid dreaming thing :/ keep falling alseep! ):

What kind of man do you think you are? If you're a man at all.

Okay that was pointless. I've came to a conclusion: everybody construes different things. Can't we all just sit down and clear the air-.-

Anyways, I wanna try! :D but its so scary D: what if I wake up and see something scary )):

Bring back the memories and stir up my emotions again.

Omg I had a bad dream ): Miss Amy scolded me for not handing in AEP homework D: but AEP hasn't even started LOL.

Homework overloadddd. Gonna have to break into class tmr to get my homework from under table ): oh screw this.

Meeeh. My Taptap has more songs than my iPhone._. that's 600+ O.o

Boohoo. I'd rater school than holiday._.

Kinda skipped track meet ;) but worth it :)

Hehee Talentime was funnn :D bwhawhahhaha yesss I made Shao go >:) That was the fun part actually. And everything before that which I will not say XD

Hmm. I spent so much this week O: Nvm, last week of school so splurgeeee! :D If you enjoyed it then its not wasted! :D

I guess, I finally understand now. Thankyou. And I could not have had it any other way.

Oh, and, I do things cause I want to, not cause I'm being mean and just putting on a show.

Don't try so hard, say goodbye.

But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you
I knew you could see right through me :)

NOTE: THIS POST WAS WRITTEN ON WEDNESDAY~

OMG YAY I FINALLY GOT CONNECTION IN CLASS!! O.o MH!! :D gah I'm so poor in mh T.T

Anyways! I keep thinking today's Thursday._. lol. Cmon week faster end!!! I'm so excited for holidays XD meh. Actually I'm very sleepy ): can you believe it! 3 essays to write: 1 LA, 1 IH and 1 MI ): plus loads of other stuff. Oh screw this ):

I wanna shoot perfectlyyyy! Urgh. I wont be training this week already-.- then next week is holiday! Grah. I want to do so many things but I have no timeeeee!

Silly Ethan! I reached home first I dont care!!! ;(

Yay today quite happy luhh. Miss Khoo (Lilin) said my essay was good! Above average luhh but sameeee! :D actually I was upset LOL. So I bought two double chocolate cookies to console myself :) yumyum :9

SPIRE is so funnn although its time consuming ):

Bleh. I am so lazy to blog. Doesn't even help or solve my problems.

Thursday! People underestimate me ): Just cause I was scrapping through 2.4km run doesn't mean I'm weak. Yay. Still the best girl in class :D Girl. Bleh. 18 incline pull ups, 195cm standing broad jump :D

Let today be a good day ^^

Funny how things can change.

Hehee. LA roleplay not bad luhh ^^ I'm so damn sleepy I wanna go home and sleeeeep! Gah ): Although ERIPS is funfunfun :D I hope time flies~~ Fasterrrr!

Omg this is a senseless post ):

I wish I could run away.

Ohh great. Spoils my mood. Totally.

Anyways, I passed my trial run for NAPFA. Lololol. Sigh. Haven't sold Funatsia tickets ):

Okay this is weird :/

God help me.

I'm shaking from the pain that's in my head just wanna crawl into my bed and throw away the life I led.

When you see me shining
The voices of jealousy in your head will ring.
And let my light blind your eyes
And kill your fucking lies.

Sometimes I don't understand Facebook. I post a status about being late for school for 1 minute everyday this week and I get 11 likes. I comment on a status and get 14 likes. That epic moment when your comment gets more likes than the status itself. So much win!! Lol actually I don't get the point XD

Nomyummunch I ate grilled fish! :D

Ps. After eating like a whole bag of M&Ms for two days straight, I feel like puking. Badly. :X

Eventful week.

Stupid GS roleplay I thought my group did super well lor. Just because Mr Iskandar was in a bad mood but WE DIDN'T EVEN FRIGGIN KNOW WE HAD TO GO FIRST-.-!

Was late for school everyday of this week ): I should sleep more! D: I love Dr Wee! :D

Compre test was surprisingly easy O.o I think I can get better than the previous test :D

Math is soo confusing ): about log._.

SPIRE IS SO FUNFUNFUN!

Shooting is so meh. Gun 9 is gooood :D lol. I wish I put in more effort when I shoot ): Hehee I gave Ethan my suit and took over Petrina's suit! :D

Lol. I saw the same NJ guy who lives in Tampines yesterday and today and we took the same train home yesterday and I saw him in shooting range today O.o Hahhahaa. Funny.

I wanna watch The Hunger Games and eat grilled fish with someone :/

Sigh. I never knew this side of you. And it hurts remembering how it felt to shut down.