There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever.
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
10:54 PM
Yay I think that today and yesterday have been pretty
productive because I read like 3 Time magazines (the one the school forces us
to buy because GP) (and I never read any until now) which totals up to 6
issues!!! Yes so now my brain is filled with random information like coral
reefs and 30 million Snapchat users daily or something. But oh well needa
improve on GP so.
Errkay anyways this is awkward because uh people I know tell
me that people they know who are people I don’t know read my blog (LOL
confusing much) (hint: why does my blog stats show that 31% of viewers use Macs -> and which school has students with Macs LOL) but yeeeah uh okay time to start blogging like I’m actually
addressing an audience ._. anddd I thought this is a rather busy time of the
year like J2s having A levels, J1s having PW OP and Sec4s having O levels so uh
don’t waste time reading my rants LOL. But I kinda said/hinted that before
right so oh well since y’all are supportive I guess (?) I shall uh try to not
waste your time reading by actually blogging about useful things. Yes I know I
said that before too but oh well.
SO YEAH this isn’t such a good timing since O level English
is over but I’m just gonna type out my CTs GP essay here because:
1. Like I said, I hope y’all will benefit HAHA I mean for those who are JC
students/intend to go JC and take GP.
2. I need to refresh my memory and learn from my mistakes sigh.
DISCLAIMER: Please do not reproduce without permission. And
yes I got an E for GP overall which is kinda really sad because I really tried
:c and for promos I actually passed compre for the first time lol but also
failed essay for the first time sigh which makes me really sad so that’s reason
#2 on how to improve my essay skills because I think it’s a good piece. I
THINK. And yes for this essay I got 30/50 (content 17/30, language 13/20) and
anything 30 and above is considered good soo yeah. Though I’ve written essays
which got me 32 before like last year but meh it sucks for a JC standard essay
so I’m typing this one out instead. Yes written under timed conditions, under
exam conditions.
“The world is becoming too reliant on technology. Do you
agree?”
Mankind has always been intrigued and fascinated by technology,
from the days of the invention of the telephone by Alexander Bell to the
historic moment when Man first landed on the moon. Over the years, technology
has progressed so rapidly that what was once considered the ‘latest technology’
at one point in time, is quickly replaced by another in a matter of years or
even months. This constant pursuit of technological advancement is strongly
indicative of mankind’s increasing reliance on technology. The effects of this
may be good or bad, depending on the various types of technology now available,
namely, environmental, health and safety technology, social and communicative
technology, as well as educational technology.
Supporters of technology often argue that technology is
mankind’s greatest discovery, and as the creators of technology, we have the
ability to control it, and not the other way round. The use of technology in
industries such as the nursing industry has proven to be effective, as compared
to conventional practices involving doctors’ and nurses’ round the clock care,
often resulting in tired and overworked doctors and nurses, thus reducing the
productivity and quality of care provided. Technology in this case is a
lifesaver, no pun intended, and has been utilized in the best manner in
hospitals and other health institutes. Medical practitioners recognise that the
human touch is necessary in diagnosing and treating patients, and only limit
the use of technology to basic computing of patients’ health records and
personal particulars.
However, in other areas concerning the use of technology in
the environment, health and safety sector, mankind is developing or has already
developed an over-reliance in technology. The use of special machines and medical
apparatus in hospitals has paved the way for automated procedures to be used on
patients. Doctors do not have to physically operate on patients, but rather,
can do so behind the glass. These procedures do not reinforce physical and
safety awareness, as doctors and nurses assume that the machines would be doing
their job accurately, often resulting in accidents and near misses, which
again, exemplifies the point that mankind is too reliant on technology. Green
technology, or technology specially created in order to undo mankind’s carbon
footprint and toxic emissions, among other environmental concerns, prove to be
more of a hindrance than a help. Take for example the ongoing research on smart
windows, which are windows that can electronically change from clear to tinted,
thereby reducing energy consumption. Researchers around the world are trying to
improve its lifespan and lower the production costs of these smart windows,
however, these experiments involve the use of toxic materials such as zinc and
nickel oxides, and high powered machines such as vacuum chambers. Improper
discharge of these chemical substances and excessive energy use would lead to
even more environmental challenges. The development of such technology is also
indicative of Man’s over-reliance on technology, where instead of cutting down
on unnecessary electrical appliances such as air-conditioning, Man chooses to
invest more time and resources in technology to create new solutions, which
undoubtedly come with new sets of problems.
Technology has also made waves in the social and
communicative industry. According to the Internet World Stats, the percentage
of the world population with Internet access was at 4% in 1999. This percentage
increased tenfold, fifteen years later. This means that almost every other
person has access to the internet, which can be used for several purposes, both
good and bad, but ultimately shows that mankind is becoming too reliant on
technology. Take for example the fleet industry, which makes use of
communicative technology to keep track of its assets, customers and suppliers.
In the past, this information was typewritten and manually keyed into
spreadsheets, which were then stored by the company itself. Today, such
information is collated and stored in hard drives – another technological
advancement – by the suppliers of the fleet company. The over-reliance of
technology in this case results in these companies having to invest more money
in order to secure the information from viruses and online threats. Had it not
been for this over-reliance, these companies could have invested in providing
better service for commuters or giving bonuses to employees instead. The use of
both intranet and internet has also led to problems such as miscommunication,
and addiction, for the latter. Electronic mails sent out may be received by
somebody else due to unknown circumstances, or the message in the e-mail may not
have been as clear as that when verbally communicated. The rise of social media
platforms such as Facebook and Twitter have also led to problems such as
cyber-bullying and addiction, which are most prevalent among teens. Thus, it is
apparent that such excessive usage of technology is indeed present in society
today, and it bring about a lot of problems for its users.
The use of technology has extended to the education sector,
where more and more schools are introducing electronic learning, or e-learning
in short, in order to improve students’ information technology (IT) skills.
Projects and assignments are also being administered through word processing
documents instead of the conventional pen and paper tests. The rationale behind
doing so is so as to help student be better prepared for the working world,
which makes use of technology, especially the personal computer, extensively.
While this may seem like a noble cause, especially to those who come from less
well to do families and do not have such benefits readily available at home,
there is a dark side to it. One of Britain’s famous authors, Sir Terry Pratchett,
is condescending towards the idea of electronic learning, as it hinders natural
learning, especially that of handwriting and spelling. Students become so
accustomed to word processing documents which are equipped with legible and
neat fonts, as well as spell-check and autocorrect, that they do not realise
the importance of such basic skills. The rise of the search engine giants such
as Google and Yahoo! has also made students and adults alike to become lazy.
The pursuits of knowledge no longer become interesting or fulfilling for the
human mind, and image searchers such as Google Imager, Tumblr and Instagram
have further worsened the current situation. By deliberately removing words and
captions as far as possible, this creates an effect of the human brain thinking
even less, thus resulting in the famous act of aimlessly scrolling one’s
Instagram feed, or toiling entertainment websites such as 9gag for hours,
instead of socialising in real life. This over-reliance on technology can be
further proven by a simple observation or test, where people go about their daily
activities such as commuting and eating, while hanging on to their smartphones,
laptops, or other devices, and would get angry when these technological items
are taken away from them, for example, when parents or teachers confiscate
students’ mobile devices.
In conclusion, technology is apparent in every single corner
of our lives and there is no escaping it, for most, if not all people. However,
this over-reliance on technology can be reduced if all stakeholders, the
society, government and businesses, play a part in recognising and reducing
unnecessary activities which make use of technology. Failure to do so would
result in an even worse situation where mankind would go beyond being too
reliant on technology.
Word count: 1212 words. Uh I guess the trick is to include
lotsa examples and link it back to your argument? *crams all the examples used
here the night before* *oh and the thing about smart windows is from my H3
research LOL I practically shot down my own project but yeah research is cool
and increases general knowledge (Y)*
We're giants in a little man's world.
Sunday, October 26, 2014
7:44 PM
WARNING: Old post from weeks ago which I didn't want to delete because may come in useful like now lol.
I used to be so optimistic even it surprises me now. Like how I used to be optimistic about PW. About my grades. About school in general.
Now I understand when and why people say that their home isn't a home - it is merely a house. Because I've been feeling that way. Not lately, over a long time. I've been pushing that thought away but it's times like these that I wish I was independent enough to lead a life on my own because it sucks being a burden, even if it isn't intentional. Even if it seems to be alright for others. Because the truth is everyone will, one day, turn back on you and accuse you of something. That's life. That's why you die alone. That's why you're burried alone. Because truly, nobody is there for you. (Wow somehow I end up mentioning death again.)
Yep okay here's the new stuff :D
Ugh it's not even the holidays yet but I can't even enjoy myself??? Aka reading a book. What's wrong with reading a book in a few hours at least I can occupy my mind with other thoughts asap instead of dragging which means I'll be more productive BUT OH WELL.
Starting to think that life is getting worse. Each year seems worse. Starting to think that I should forever remain cold and moody because what's the difference: when I'm happy apparently something is 'wrong'.
Don't wanna go for a dumb 'holiday' where I get dragged off like right after school on the 14th of November which means that I can't go for SIM 3 on 3 Floorball which really sucks because I never get to do so many things I've planned beforehand. And as a INFJ it really irritates me to have plans ruined. And seriously me forgoing my competition just to go for a dumb 'holiday' to bond with the family when it isn't even bonding because my dad will be away cycling for a few many hours while I probably will sit in the hotel and mug my ass off just like any other 'holiday'.
Not that I care honestly I just want these three years to fly by please. Three years from now I'd have finished my Diploma in Islamic Studies and I'd be halfway through Psychology Major at NUS. Three years from now I can haz Jing Jie again. Sigh. It's not so bad I guess. Day #19 of 1095 days. Just kidding it hurts I hate this I hate my grades I hate my life.
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads but we don't believe it.
Friday, October 24, 2014
9:20 PM
I promoted thank God. I promoted with 4 H2s and I'm not even at risk omg thank you. Yes I have to and will work harder. It's mad I'm going to be J2 next year. What happened to the "omg 6 years in the same school" days? I am not ready but I will be. Hah to all the people who thought that I couldn't make it. (Aka my parents) (Aka myself slightly)
But yeah my results are really bad I could have done better sigh like seriously I don't even bother calculating and I probably got U for every single promo paper. Except ELL of course. ELL is a saviour. Although I spent the least time studying for it. Econs was a disappointment.
Today was actually kinda bad I was really worried I couldn't even sleep it's mad. (I woke up at 2am and feeling really sickly now.) But it's okay I'd go through this again just to promote. And yes here's to sleepless nights because A levels in less than 400 days.
Thank you to those who helped me pull through and I'm sorry for being such a disappointment but I don't care anymore the only people I will NEVER want to disappoint are Nath, Jing Jie and myself. Because they are truly the people who've been at the top, at the bottom, and both. (Yes in order of naming wow.)
And to those who didn't promote, it's not the end. Don't give up. It's the usual it's okay message but really. You are made for better things in life. It's a wake up call I guess, just that different people get different types of calls. Don't despair because God only gives you things you can handle. I don't deserve to promote, personally I think, but I'm going to make it worthwhile.
Trying to be perfect, trying not to let you down.
Let me apologise to begin with.
Thursday, October 23, 2014
9:04 PM
So tomorrow is marks checking day. Never felt so nervous in all my years. Probably because I always knew that I'd do well, or well enough anyway. But now, I'm not so sure. I mean I'm not 100% sure like always, probably about 75% sure that I will promote. Promote with 4 H2s is another question altogether.
Yes I know it is my fault for having such shitty attitude towards my studies and it is my fault if I retain and I'm sorry. I don't even know really what to say here but I'm just saying something before tomorrow because tomorrow is when things change forever lol. Yes I wish I tried harder.
But maybe, second chances may not seem so bad after all. I know a handful of retainees and it doesn't seem so bad for them. I guess it seems bad for me because I'm conditioned to doing well. Failure is not an option. Though lately my mind is starting not to care anymore because I can't take education in Singapore it hurts my brains it hurts me because it's so tough and I'm not tough. Yes, I'm the kind of smart people who believe that there's a limit to my mental capacity and that I have reached it. Feeling sorry for myself.
I wish that I could be like the cool kids.
Monday, October 20, 2014
7:45 PM
Sian phone ban so much might as well not have a phone at all omg it is super troublesome to keep logging in and out of Twitter and Facebook and Instagram and Blogger AND EVEN MY GOOGLE ACCOUNT AND EMAIL so like ya my phone is so useless >.>
PW sucks omg so stressed but LUCKILY OUR SLIDES ARE FABULOUS I THINK I just hope I can present well sigh sigh sigh.
Idk sometimes I get really jealous and life is so unfair why do some people get really nice friends in school and seem to be so popz all the time sigh idk why I even bother stalking some people :c but it's okay I will never trade my life for anyone else's no matter how shitty my life is there are people I never ever want to lose. Super old picture from instagram because I'm using my iphone to blog lolol hello I missed you quite terribly.
I can't keep up and I can't back down.
Saturday, October 18, 2014
10:05 PM
NEED TO DO PW OMG I AM SO DISTRACTED UGH ended up looking at laptops and stuff and I blame pw because during lecture a few weeks ago about op they showed a video of Steve Jobs talking about macbook air and omg the way he speaks wow I want a macbook air too. Haha jk I don't even know how to use macs but yeah I want an ultrabook SIGH and I'll probably only get a laptop OF MY OWN like in uni??? Oh well I guess all the more I have to make it to uni then ;_;
So many disgusting things in life that I want to be over but it seems to be going on forever and if I keep this mentality I'll probably end up saying that I want my life to be over.
I finally know just what it means to let someone in.
Friday, October 17, 2014
10:48 AM
Wha WR due today is mad like people pon school/lesson/assembly but yay thank the timetabling committee for giving me free period every Friday so I can rush my shit all the time xD pw is horrible omg can't wait for it to be over so painful but I'm not prepared sigh.
Seniors' farewell assembly ytd sigh gonna miss the seniors especially since IP first batch people are niceee and floorball and Council people are niceee :)
Kinda found out the reason why I keep saying I'll retain LOL because I keep thinking that promotional criteria is DDSS but it is ESSU so yay but not so yay because I mean I keep thinking that I'll promote but just not with 4 H2s :( idek what to drop omg I hate chem and I haven't really understood anything but chem is important and I can't drop math and I love econs it is not worth dropping and there's no such thing as H1 ELL so that's out of the question so SIGH.
This one's a fighter.
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
6:19 PM
Omg hate PW ugh so tiring plus research on top of that ha ha plus the suspense/stress of results sigh I want to promoteee I don't want to retain but I am also not ready for SH2 life and I am not ready for A levels but I don't want to retain I don't think I'll be ready either way SIGH life is so difficult I don't want to be a 7 year IP kid pleaseee.
Oh my stupid wound is crazy idek but I'm uh gonna leave the gauze in it??? So like uh my skin is going to grow over cotton. Yuck. Thinking about it makes my knees go weak more than they already are.
I want to think beautiful thoughts I want to have a beautiful mind.
Someday things will be perfect.
Wednesday, October 8, 2014
10:42 PM
So today was a bad day lol woke up late so ya I was late for school I mean like what do you expect right. Waking up at 6.20am and expecting to go from Pasir Ris to Bukit Timah before 7.40am >.> So ya I was late ugh hopefully I don't get a yellow slip for latecoming because MY YELLOW SLIP DAYS ARE OVER OK.
So after that was SH1 games day omg I suck at captains ball I suck at sports :( except floorball maybe lol. But then again, I lost last year during JH4 games day to Ankur ugh. But then again, I was victorious hehehe during Floorballholic this year (Y) but then again small goals easy peasy silly people goalie skills like positioning and all that come in really useful LOL.
But yeah no posts on insta and no pictures here because no phone lol. Feels damn weird because when I want to take something down, I HAVE TO USE PEN AND PAPER LIKE SERIOUSLY?! And I can't even take pictures of announcements or whatever. Can't even check council chat I'm sorry. Heck, I don't even know what time or date it is >.>
So ya bad start to the day bad day what a bad life.
Howling ghosts they reappear.
Monday, October 6, 2014
4:42 PM
So I spent the last hour searching about child poverty because PW but then I ended up at Association for Psychological Science and ended up reading a million articles about psychology and I realise that I wanna study psychology in the future. Educational psychology. Yes, even if that means going to FASS instead of Law haha.
I realise it is important to set realistic expectations. Expect less, be surprised more. People need to, especially, expect less from others. It’s pressurising especially for people like me because I guess my previous success was only accidental and does not reflect my true abilities so yeah. Quit bringing it up.
Oh also if this somehow gets conveyed to me in real life (hint hint like how I think I’ll retain) it’s obviously because of what I say here. Because trust me, the only place I ever say I’ll retain is here or Twitter, and my Twitter is private so. Ugh.
Really need to plan my future like really really NEED to because I really really NEED to be independent. Like, I really really need to promote (also because I can’t let Nath down sigh (yes I don’t mind letting everybody else down because people and their annoying expectations annoy me)) so I can take A levels and do really really well in Psychology and get a job and get married yes.
So am I wrong for thinking that we could be something for real?
3:06 PM
It’s actually pretty hard to concentrate, especially with
things like thematic progression and child poverty swimming through my mind
because ELL and PW but I’ll try haha.
Tbh I knew this was coming idek why I try anymore but really
tell or no tell, it makes no difference because everything ends the same way
blah blah I need to change myself so ya I don’t see any point in talking
anymore.
I am stupid I don’t deserve to be human haha I wish I was a
cloud. Seeing stuff which makes me disappointed but I hope it’s not something
permanent but then again it’s hard for people to change (eg. me) so I really do
not know, but you don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world...but you
do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.
And you know one of these days, when I get my money right,
buy you everything and show you all the finer things in life.
Marry me today and everyday.
And there are days when I'm losing my faith.
Saturday, October 4, 2014
12:13 PM
Omg I need to stop acting like promos are over ugh read three books in one day kinda ~.~ and I still haven't finished reading on ELL gah help it's so difficult I don't even know how to analyse or what. 3/4 of promos done hope I promote >.> PW after that omggg.
But anyways if you're looking for books to read over the holidays I suggest the lorien legacies :D the POV keeps changing which sometimes confuses me especially since I have to wait a whole year before the next book comes out and kinda forget what happened :x but its cool if you're into the percy jackson/heroes of olympus kinda stuff :)
Idk what HAPPENED TO GOOD INTENTIONS I don't get it. If you do good things for people JUST TO BRING IT UP IN THE FUTURE ABOUT HOW GOOD AND SELFLESS YOU ARE then I don't see why others can't do the same to you BECAUSE LOGIC. Freaking sick and tired about "blah blah you better be grateful for everything I've done for you" talk because YES OBVIOUSLY even though some stupid things like moral support through being anonymous on MY ASK.FM IS JUST PLAIN DISGUSTING AND CRINGE WORTHY and does not help. But thanks anyways. I know nobody is there for me except family blah blah blood is thicker than water but sometimes we need to drink water, not blood.
