TWO MORE DAYS UNTIL BOARDINGGGG. Lol I think I'm overpacking ohno D:

Boohoo I cut my hair :'(((

Actually I don't love you anymore. I love who you used to be. But now that you've stopped its just not the same anymore. There's no point anymore. Maybe there never was. I love the way I perceive you to be. I'm in love with the thought of you.

GAH I WISH I MEANT EVERYTHING TO YOU. OR AT LEAST SOMETHING. CAUSE YOU ARE EVERYSINGLEDAMNEDTHING TO ME.

Dammit Fridays are gonna suck. Its not the absence-makes-the-heart-grow-fonder nor is it the heart-fluttering feeling anymore. Its the oh-its-you-help-someone-save-me feeling. It feels like I'm getting a cardiac arrest or something. Since I don't actually know how it feels like. But ohgod it hurts. It hurts bad. I miss your love.

Same mistakes.

Yayy this week is over! Whahaha I ended at 12pm cos that was lunch then no MI lecture and no IH :D you jelly! Haha but had to stay back for spire XD then while I was walking home some random parent came to talk to me and ask questions about NJ omg-.- lucky I was tourguide for JH School Tour before LOL.

YAYYY CAN'T WAIT FOR BOARDING OMGOMG THREE MORE DAYS!! AND GOT NIGHT CYCLING WOOHOO!

GRANT HAS THE EXACT SAME BIRTHDATE AS GREYSON CHANCE OMG I'M SO JEALOUS!!!

Gah neways. Me is tired :( tired of everything. Tired of caring for you. Tired of missing you.

Mi amor you're the one I adore.

I don't expect you to care.

Coincidental much. Made my heart flutter again.

ANYWAY. I finally got shoes for shooting! :D bwahaha. So I improved in shooting? More like I come down to train more often-.-

Today was superrr free bleh. No LA ;) but Khoo came in for PD :( no SPIRE :D but we discussed a leeeettle bit><

Hmm. The week passes by so fast...

Funny how things can change.

GAH ITS TUESDAY AND I WANNA DIE ALREADY. I AM SO PISSED AT EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING URGHH.

I feel like the whole damned world is hiding every single thing from me. Either that or I'm really oblivious. GAH KILL ME ALREADY.

Malay was dreadful. IH was damn fun and interesting cause ITS MR HAN!!! Math was boring I fell asleep LOL sorry Mr Pok :X LA was interesting at first then it got boringgg. LA for 1.5hr in the afternoon can sleep omg. MR CHAN DOESN'T LIKE JUSTIN BIEBER BOOHOO STUPIDDD.

AEP WAS FUNNN WE DID PAINTING :D :D but I suck at painting :(

Don't be so cold, we could be fire.

Oh oops I forgot to talk about ze first day of school lol.

Woke up, blahblah, wasn't sure if I was gonna be late or not but thankfully I reached school at 731am :D and it feels as thought its my first day of school O: like JH1 kind of first day I mean._. Assembly boringgg lucky no long welcome back speech-.- temperature taking this week. Urgh. Then started intro-ing the new teachers who were super awkward when they stood on the podium LOL.

Then PE. I bet we were the only class who had to run 2 rounds before height and weight-.- WHICH TOTALLY SUCKED. BOTH. OMG I GREW TALLER AND PUT ON WEIGHT OMGGG GAHHH SCREW THIS I NEEDA DIET ALREADY.

Then recess, MI, free period = 2+ hours no lesson since PE also release early. Then Physics in lab was our "first" lesson of the day! Ning talk so much and so off topic I was dozing off-.- Then LUNCH NOMNOM :9 then Maths MR POK IS SO NICE HAHAHAH. Then Malay for 3 period I was dyinggg. Quite funny la :) I love how time flies in Malay XD then Bio we got a new booklet! :D it looked soo newww haha! :3 and Miss Zhuang said it costs $5+ :6 I wonder why can't the school just ask us to buy a normal textbook!!

So yep that concludes my day LOL. I'm reeaally tired gah shouldn't have slept at 3am :( oh and, I went home with Tampines Guy hehee ^_^

Girlfriend.

Yah right.

What the hell. Don't make things difficult, thanks.

ITS JB. My friends say I'm a fool to think that you're the one for me, I guess I'm just a sucker for love. Cause honestly the truth is that you know I'm never leaving, cause you're my angel sent from above. Baby, you can do no wrong, my money is yours, give ya a little more because I love ya, love ya ;)

"Goodnight, Justin," she whispered, as she tightened her arms around me. "I love you."

Her voice never failed to intrigue me. It had a tinge of true blue honesty behind that honeyed enunciation. To me, it was what made her unique. Perfect. Flawless.

"Goodnight," I said, omitting the later half of my reply. She was already asleep. I could never bring myself to utter those three, simple words, anyway.

I embraced her close, letting the warmth of my body encircle her as the autumn breeze wafted. Her skin was cold but I didn't mind. I was lost in thought. I couldn't live like this. Not when the guilt was exacerbating with each passing day.

The urge to pour everything out was intensifying as the night wore on. Several times I had to resist myself from shaking her wide awake. I wanted to warn her. I needed to.

"No. You cannot and you will not."

The sudden memory jolted me wide awake. My castles in the air crumbled and vanished, as though non-existent in the first place. Just like that, I was filled with a newfound resolute. A spark which quickly ignited into flames of unwavering determination.

I closed my eyes and smiled. Destroy.

Disclaimer: The characters in this story are fictional and are in no way related to past or present events or people. Any similarities are purely coincidental.

Just kidding. These are the kind of dreams which plague me every night.

Ps. I was gonna use another name but I realised that I loved the name Justin so much. Ahh what is wrong with me :/ No, I love my name more XD second then.

Pps. I think the last time I wrote a narrative was in primary school? So yeahh this is not a fantastic piece of writing :P but in my opinion, writings which are inspired by emotions are the best. And no, I'm not implying that I'm a guy but this is just my lousy, narrowed perspective :( AKA PURPOSELY HEAVILY MELLOWED DOWN. but yes, its emotional like all my poems. Though I left that behind months ago.

Harhar. I'm so emotional at night. I wrote this at 2am-.-

Haha okay so the question I answered (and my answer) was this XD and its a dumb answer I'm so grateful the Asker picked me LOL. Cos there are other answers which reeaally made sense. Historical sense ><

Aiya tmr school already :( actually I finished all my homework on Saturday haha XD quite completed to free up my Sunday la :) so I slept for friggin four hours D: and now I can't sleep ohno :( Monday blues~ I hope it rains tmr so no PE :( Yay luckily there's sgBEAT so I can tweet all the time even though I don't have data plan! :D actually I think I kinda look forward to school O:

Omg haha! I don't always answer questions on Yahoo! Answers but when I do, I get best answer haha! :D

And the wonder of it all is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

I won't say that my blog post titles are always good but some are just fantastic :') I changed my Twitter name! :D looks so nice XD cos I downloaded some new Emoji app haha :) yeah I'm still feeling the same way as I did in my previous post. Feeling the same way as I did 10 months ago. Wow time sure flies.

Every picture I take of myself is horrible and I'll delete everything and just keep one which I think is okay. And another day I'll do the exact same thing yet I think the more recent one is always nicer O.o haish ohwell. Google+ is a meanie! :(

Haish. The guy always apologizes and the girl never accepts. And then they start posting about each other though the other party knows it and replies indirectly. That's too mainstream no wonder it didn't happen. Sigh. Its always times like these when I think of you and I wonder if you ever think of me. And will you miss me while you're looking for yourself out there. Probably most definitely not. Its hard to miss something when you never wanted it in the first place.

I know we got issues baby true true true but I'd rather work on this with you than to go ahead and start with someone new. #AsLongAsYouLoveMe

Lol my typical day is now: Wake up at whatever time (between 9am to 3pm), nothing to eat? Okay let's fast. Go toilet bathe then surf Internet and YouTube for chords/blog on my phone, play guitar until 4pm or until my phone dies. On computer do multiple projects at a time. 7pm break fast then make mocha and spam #BELIEVE + study until 5am (and without distractions hah :P Twitter is minimal XD). Breakfast. Sleep at 6am. Wake up again. Yep, and the cycle continues. I'm screwed :P omg wait I just realized I became a hardcore mugger O: like 8pm to 5am O.o pasts quite fast actually thanks to the caffeine :D caffeine plus alot of milk rather. Nah actually cos I do my work really slowly T.T but progressing! :D

Oh random fact: I learnt the word "prerequisite" from maple :P

But really, studying at night is so much better. I think I became even more introverted. I hate to study with people and now I hate to study when people are WATCHING me study. So yeah. Its peaceful anyway, in the middle of the night. Peaceful all the time rather. Like the only texts I send nowadays are either family-related, school-related or Twitter-related. AKA sending to sgBEAT hotline. #NoLife

Good morning and good night
I wake up at twilight.

Cause I don't want, want nobody when I got, got your body, baby, no, no, nobody. You're what I need tonight :)

Ahhh I'm sorry, BieberFever :D :D :D #BIEBERBLASTING #AsLongAsYouLoveMe #AllAroundTheWorld #BeautyAndABEAT #OneLove #BeAlright #BELIEVE

(Twitter was down it was horrible!!!)

Nicki Minaj's rap in Beauty and A Beat sounds funny to me XD but ALL the collabs in Believe are good O:

Can't wait for boardinggg! Gonna lend Grant my Believe DVD and get Love Me Like You Do in return :D the title sounds like Love You Like A Love Song. Eww. Stupid dumb song which makes no sense. Sorry Sel :P

Oh and Happy Belated Justin Bieber Day XD omggg. I'm serious. Believe is seriously GOOD. Damn good in fact. And just because I'm a Belieber doesn't mean I like all his songs. For example, I don't really like Under The Mistletoe. Practically the whole album. Though I have the deluxe edition also hehh :/ BUT POINT IS, BELIEVE IS DAMN FREAKING GOOD. And its rated 5star :) and even haters can't deny that its good. The WHOLE album is good. It just has a different feel and vibe to it XD don't expect to hear what you do in My Worlds, its totally different. In a very good way.

Haha Grant says Maria sounds like Billie Jean XD I don't really listen to MJ unless it comes on the radio but I know :D yeah, Believe (I mean the album, not the song) has some MJ feel to it too :D and Believe (the song) is nice too :) I keep associating it with Pray haha :D that aside, I recommend that you get the album ASAP!! Haha yeah I never recommend albums to buy, but THIS. IS. GOLD.

Grah. This is crazy. Everything's up-side-down!!

I end up staying up for the whole night and sleep at 630am and wake up at 1030am. And actually, I'm not that busy XD morning + afternoon = slack, play guitar :/ evening = do ALL the projects! Night = do math/physics/chem/malay._. urghh. I'm gonna die if my sleeping habits don't revert back ><

My fringe decided to change side I dunno why! :( haha if you notice, the picture I took with my #BELIEVE is different from all my others cos of my fringe XD its uncomfortable and uncomforting :/ hehee I think I shall go to the hairdresser O: next week maybe >< I'm gonna regret it :(((

So neways, I went to Kinokunya at Bugis the other day :) :(

Gah 4 more days till school. Ohman :( I wanna stay up all night and mug again lol XD omggg so far today all I did was play guitar :/ perfected my Payphone and learning As Long As You Love Me now :D my fingers are forever hurting D:

Bleh my body clock is super screwed >< Its like I'm living in Europe :( oh wait, I already am :P lol jk this joke is getting old.

But really, I sleep at 1+am and wake up at 10+am every single day! Oh but I took a nap today from 4+pm to 6+pm :P but I haven't slept till now (6am) and I'm gonna sleep soon already la, hehh :) such a bad timing >< oh, and I practically only eat one meal a day?! Dinner at 7+pm. Cos I'm paying back my fasting and I keep can't wake up in the morning so yeahh T.T and no, you won't die :D cmon I bet anorexic ppl do worse than this :X

ANYWAY. Owl City's duet with Carly Rae Jepsen is coming out on 26 June!! Good Time :D yeah its gonna be summer track of the year (Y)

Ohmygod everyone!! Stop flaming already! First Amanda Bieber, then Godstin Bieber then some American critic criticizing my Zayn :'(

Amanda Bieber (@MandaSwaggie): Hates every single religion and haters and Singapore and basically everything unrelated to Justin. Don't think she knows what she's saying half the time. Her number and address got leaked lol. Love her dad for confiscating her #Believe. And she wants to have a foursome with Justin + Zayn + Cody?! Wth firstly, don't steal them from me >:( secondly, what did I just read._. oh, and claims that she doesn't like 1D. Yeah right.

@GodstinBieber: Flaming Islam. And Zayn. WHATDIDWEEVERDOTOYOU?! Sigh. Even singers themselves aren't so judgemental.

Debbie Schlussel: American critic especially about Islam. Cmon, fans don't mind Zayn so why should you interfere? Nevermind, at least you're getting hate ;)

"I don't want to live on this planet anymore."

Zzz there's nothing nice online omg I really dunno what to dooo. Here's a funny picture on 9gag :) Exactly like me :/ The studying part :P

So, I'm supposed to write a Malay compo about why is Singapore's economy so good XD hahah. I know this one! We have so much reserves, DUHH. And since we're part of Europe, we're probably gonna save the whole world out of this recession ;)

OHGOD THAT'S SO FUNNEH.

Neways, CRAP I'M LIVING IN THE EAST SO HOTHOTHOT :( blogs.nlb.gov.sg/ask/adults/1116 :)

Omg Twitter is crazy. Seriously? SGTT Amanda Bieber and Singapore is in Europe? I don't mind the latter cos its plain funny but the former is plain stupid. Attention seeking whore. Ohwell. 14 year old. Somehow, I don't think I was that bad last year O.o go see her Twitter at your own risk/just for laughs. Har har. Sad she deleted so many of her tweets lol. But yup.

Some of the awesome replies: "And Singapore hates you. RT: @MandaSwaggie: Justin hates Singapore."

Aiya alot more la I'm just lazy to type XD neways, 9GAG SG is spammin really funny stuff :D go to www.facebook.com/9gag.sg :D

Hehh. I'm half hoping this will come out in tmr's papers LOL.

Har har. Justin must be so proud of you. I wonder what he has to say to this.

Proud to Be: An European.

WOOH I HAZ GOTTEN MY #BELIEVE ITS AMAZING BEYOND WORDS OMG.

Favourite tracks? First three haha XD

Wahh. I just thought of another 60s idea to change the world. For Grant. While bathing. LOL.

As long as you love me
We could be starving
We could be homeless
We could be broke
As long as you love me
I'll be your platinum
I'll be your silver
Or I'll be your gold
As long as you love me.

ps. Hi mengyuan :)

OHHHHH. I see. Lol I'm so stupid D: hi people who tag. Nice to know you're from twitter. WHAT IS THIS SOCERY!!!

Uhm. Thanks but no thanks. I mean, its a nicer way of putting "NO I DON'T WANT TO MAKE MY FACE 'BEAUTY'."

Thankyou. Good night to me. Good day to you.

Please, follow me rather than tag O.o

Ohyeah. HAPPY FATHERS DAY :D hehee :D and like every year, I'll call the pizza guy and we'll have pizza for lunch :9 hmm I think Sarpino's Butcher flavour pizza is damn nice. Its so meatyyyy! <3 hehh I love pepperoni XD oh and cos it doesn't have pineapples too :D I hate pineapples :P

So anyway, THE PIZZA GUY KTHXBAI-ED ME O: and I'm like what?!?! Lol so funny XD

YAY CANT WAIT #BELIEVE IS COMINGGGG! :D I haz just camwhored with my UAN Limited Yearbook Edition but I'm not gonna post it bleah. Eeyer. But my camwhore not so extreme I think. I hope. I take a few pics and delete everything and only keep one!! >< and use Insta-whatever whoops. Cos my room has really bad lighting LOL.

Anyway, if I ever do use Photoshop, its just to blend my arm into my shirt/clothes into the cupboard and effects. I don't Photoshop my face omggg-.-

Oh and don't follow me on Instagram and GIFboom cos I don't use them :P I mean, I use them but I don't upload stuff. Its like Twitter omg crappy follower thingy.

HAHA yay I haz reached godlike status in mah CoinDozerPro ;) cheats? Nahh. Just keep playing lol. Strategy? Try drop 4 coins in a row everytime I guess. That's what I do :D haha yes, my CoinDozerFree is beyond awesome :)

Hehh Valentine is so cute XD neways! Omg JB vs 1D >< umm I voted for Justin cos I've been a Belieber longer than a Directioner :|

Facebook is super dead O: I think. But I do check back sometimes lol. Cos Twitter is so boring when you don't have many following/followers :(

Lol all I received today were two calls from idontknowwho so I didn't bother to pick up cos you know I don't answer calls anyway~! So if I do pick up your call, its either: important, or I feel like (prerequisite: you're on my caller ID) Haha fail XD

Neways, I just started watching Cardfight!! Vanguard Season 2 >< boo I didn't know they were so fast like immediately after Season 1 straight away do Season 2 O: but haha! Its so interesting! And they introduced a lot more clans :( anyway! Watch this episode! Singapore is in here XD #proud

Lol what happened to us? Quiet life. I've forgotten what it felt like.

Bleh. My Twitter and blog is full of random crap. The only difference is that Twitter is more up-to-date lol.

What halfhearted effort. You obviously don't know me.

Seriously, stalk Facebook? Its so old nobody uses it anymore-.- except for games. I'm having a bad time in Mousehunt T.T

Aiya whatever la. I know I said this before but all of our bridges burned down.

OHYEAH CRAP I FORGOT TO SAY: #PREVIEWTOPARADISE IS OUT!!! :D my favourite song is Wish You Were Here :D yay! :D go listen! :D or go watch the PreviewToParadise photoshoot XD and its so cool cos it has more LIKES than VIEWS haha! :D oh and go listen to Valentine too^^ its a nice cover! :D

And according to Twitter 1D is gonna release a single and another album in November? WHOA.

November shall be another month where I'll go broke. I can feel it in my bones :')

This is crazy love
And you know I'm gonna follow you home
Through the rain
Cause I need your love
And you know I'm gonna follow you home.

VOTEVOTEVOTE http://t.co/xY7DHz2L
Hehh guess who I voted for ;) AND LOOK AT THE RESULTS YAYY TOP THREE GREYSON, CODY, JUSTIN <3 Good job Enchancers, Simpsoners and Beliebers :') yes, I voted for Cody :D sorry 1D :/

UPDATE: CODY IS WINNING!! :D 21%:18% Greyson :)

UPDATE #2: AAH LET CODY WIN PLEASE :(
Cody - 19.44%
Justin - 18.75%

Omg today was so urghh. Went to TP Healthcare to return CIP tickets then went to SMU School of Accountancy to collect CIP records T.T yep both I got lost a little but being me, I don't get lost :D yeah, $16 gone cos I paid for the extra 8 tickets T.T any kind soul wanna buy from me? XD so anyway! Did you know! The SMU AdRace CIP was 20 hours!!! And all I had to do was stay in Macs as station master overnight :3 totally worth it man. Besides being in the middle of Ass Week so I went to mug Chem at the same time + fall asleep accidentally but still! Hehh I'd go again next year :D

Bleah. Neways. I think Lot1, Taka and PlazaSing are nice places to shop>< considering that I don't go out often :( so yeap. Nice stuff :D ohmann did you know a polaroid cam costs $120 at its cheapest :( yeah sure I can afford it without starving for a month but still... Gah. Lol I want so many things but I won't have much use for them anyway >< psh. I WILL get a polaroid cam soooooon :D I think :|

AAH ITS 1D!! I'm gonna buy this too!><
Oh btw, look what I found at the library :) sigh. I kinda forgot the storyline here and there, bits and pieces. But its a good series haha. So far from where we started, so far from what we wanted.
ps. I bought BOYFRIEND and gonna pre-order BELIEVE!! <3 <3 <3 Haiz. This is why I'm broke :/

Hehh kk long time no feel happy.

OMG I WANTTT! 😍 shall be my next shoe design :D can't wait to get Paradise! ^_^

Help I ruined my hair :( so much for not trusting hairdressers :/ bleh whatever I think I cut better LOL. Just kidding. Its horrible. Why did I have to cut omg. Oh god why. Horrible. Horrible picture. My eyes are so puffy yet small after crying for two days. Oh god why. Ohwell at least it looks O.K. when I tie T.T Meh whateverrr. Still dunno what to do with my fringe! Bangs or fringe fringe? I am so indecisive I leave it halfway between the two O.o Lalala neways, I really have to stop using instawhatever-.-

EDIT: My hair looks really short O: But this picture seems awfully perfect O.o

Sigh. Its been too long. Its so bad that sometimes I wish my whole NJ life didn't happen. Yes, its that bad.

Just be myself and be nice? Well that's really contradicting.

"I'm not a nice person."

Aiya whatever la I don't care anymore.

I won't faint the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
I won't take this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored.

OMG I'm broke for June T.T

Bleh so ytd went to school to do Math project :( then went shooting to shoot internals which was horrible since I was feeling super pressurized and rushing to do Math again :( but not bad cos I shot a few 10s^^ (which is obviously an achievement for me since I don't train often-.-)

Teehee after that I went Tampines for 6A'09 reunion! Of which 7 people turned up including me XD Bernice, Jiaxue, Justin, Lucas, McCoy and Weixuan :D but Bernice and Weixuan had to leave early :( but we ate lunch first at Texas Chicken which was so ex and not very great tasting to me :/ so anyway! We went to watch Madagascar3 HAHHAHAA. It was quite funny to me :D actually I find all movies good>< though I think some of us slept? O: it was damn colddd T.T haha so after that after much deliberating (as usual) we went to Pasir Ris and rented bikes and cycled to Bedok Reservoir and back! LOL. It was fun la burn calories :P hehh then we went back :) actually Lucas and McCoy went to eat dinner O: but the rest of us went home~ I was broke anyway cos I had to pay for my lunch and movie ticket plus Justin's ticket (cos I owed him money from the last reunion><) and bike rental which was superduper ex I'm never gonna rent a bike ever again :X haha such fail reunions we have but it was soo fun! :D

So anyway. I owe alot of money :(

Shao - $10 for obvious reasons-.-
Lucas - $2 since movie didn't have student price :( but I'm not sure if I have to payback since McCoy didn't pay at all anyway O:
Jiaxue - $2 for bike rental since I didn't have enough money :(

Oh and. Regine owes me 50¢ :3

Hahah so today I was so bored I decided to clean my wallet XD rearrange I mean. Whatever. That's what you do when you have no money :(

So yeap! I found so many interesting things hehh. All the stuff in my wallet accumulated over two years XD Of course, I didn't show you my one and only polaroid cos its ugly XD lots of random stuff lol.

There's stuff from the two previous Terra HAT's! :D and Mrs Lim's Children's Day note from JH1 :')

Neways, the movie tickets from Cathay sucks cos they fade so fast! >:( and Shaw obviously gives lousy paper-.- that's it I'm gonna watch all movies at GV instead! Oh and I did cut down on my movie spendings okay-.- I've only watched 3 movies this year XD John Carter, The Hunger Games and Madagascar 3 :D and last year hmm. Alot as you can see. Everything there minus 2 plus 3or4 since I probably lost some >< yesh there's Justin Bieber 3D and Breaking Dawn P1 :) good old days.

Hahah. So I'm at this CIP camp called Camp Comma and I have no idea why the name is like that O.o I mean:

CAMP,

Hahhahaa its so funneeee. Whee anyway I guess its quite fun la XD better than expected :3 tonight we sleep in school~ bwahahaha goodbye. I hope the night will be good >< I love my group :D

Haiz. Even at times like these you never leave my mind.

I'm sorry this post shall be about me ranting about stuff which I know are redundant but I'm like that so whatever. Teenage problems.

OMG what is wrong with me I just got my June allowance and 1/4 of it is gone paying back money I owe people O: and since its June I don't get the $50 transport money ): AND ITS GONNA BE BOARDING SO I DON'T THINK I'LL GET TRANSPORT MONEY TOO OHNO! D: and half my allowance goes into the bank so I'm left with likee $50 for the rest of the month? And there's still 6A'09 reunion! Hmm.

Hehh. As much as I look forward to boarding, I really really miss home :/

Cut my hair cos I know you like the long do, I'll just switch my attitude oh~ lol but really. I wanna cut my hair its soooo...unstraight :6

Gah. Dammit tuition is so expensive! And after the whole cohort did badly this semester now everybody's going for tuition. What the hell man. I don't want tuition. Its so stressful. Its a serious waste of money it makes your pocket emptier than it already is and it makes me feel dumb. Lol I already am. But ohwell. Since everybody's doing it obviously I have to, too. Cause Singaporeans are competitive like that. Not to mention scumbag scholars who come here too. And I want to so badly do that!!! That I mean that. I mean, that something that you don't know. Ah. Better keep my thoughts to myself.

Hmm. I guess the only reason I hate, no, dislike, you is cause you treated me too well. Wait, that doesn't make sense. I don't like you cause you made me do stuff I didn't know and now I regret it. Its such horrible memories I'd rather not think at all. But that also meant that the meanings of those stuff are lost. Which is bad, too, cause that makes me damn cheap. Of course, that's the only thing about you that I dislike. That I wish didn't happen. God, I wished nothing happened.

I hate it. Why can't people treat me like a normal student? Not the tuition part but in general. I can't even make friends without having to watch my back cause somebody is gonna stab it. Why can't we talk and have fun without having that little vestige of jealousy?

I hate hate hate it. Everybody takes advantage of me cause I'm naive and gullible like that. Cause I like people who are nice to me. Cause I can't read faces and infer from actions and body languages. Cause when I love someone, I really do. Urgh stop it. One day I'm just gonna walk away and withdraw myself from the whole damn world and you'll know nothing about me and you'll never hurt me cause I fight back. Hard.

And someday I'll be living in a big old city and all you're ever gonna be is mean.

A.k.a. I'll be one helluva successful woman living a wonderful life and you'll be somewhere at the bottom or living on the streets regretting your every move and you can go hate on me all you want but deep inside you know you're the one who caused all this ;)

MACKEREL IS ANGREEEEE. VEHREE ANGGUHREEEE.

I hate guys who love me, love guys who hate me, and friendzone or get friendzoned by the rest.

Hmm. This sucks. I still miss you.

Gosh I miss you so much. Oh stop it me. But really. Its not that I change my mind ever so often or that I'm indecisive. Its that everytime I try to walk away I just keep coming back to you.

What exactly is love?

Yawn. I'm sleepy :/ shall make a quick post :D I hope. Ohgod having two blogs is as bad as having two Facebook aka Mousehunt accounts T.T by the way, why is Facebook so dead? O:

So anyway, this Whatsapp thing is soo overrated!!! Everyone's talking about it and I see it on everyone's phone on the MRT and I'm like what?! Gah. Honestly, I prefer iMessage. Cos its built in :D but unfortunately, obviously not everybody has an iPhone. And the thing is, Whatsapp is paid on AppStore which makes me really urghh! And it was FAAD likee somewhere last year. Omggg. And for poor people like me who only got an iPhone this year-.-" technically, I can just jailbreak since my warranty is over anywayyy and even if my phone spoils, Apple staff are so useless they won't be able to fix it lol. But urgh. Cmon can't people use Line or something that's free T.T

Neways. SHIT I STARTED USING DUMBDUMB INSTAGRAM AND INSTAFRAME. Lol at least its free-.-

I had another good dream ): and why the ): is because I know it will never come true. Heck, I don't even recognise the place I was at. One moment its in my house, the next, I don't even know where. And people say you only dream of what you've seen before._. aiya. The dream wasn't good actually. I remember being scared. And I was running. Away from you. Yet I felt so helpless and paralyzed. Funny but you were chasing me. At I don't know where cos after that I woke up. Damn. All I know is that it wasn't a happy situation. More of...desperate.

Cause last night, in my dreams, we were falling in love.

Okay goodnight I've got school tmr zzz.

Omg. Yeah my blogskin is so epicly noob T.T Ohwell. That's what you get from a collab with a noob XD

Dammit I can't live like this. Deluding myself won't do. Can't do.

I'd do anything for you now.

Sigh. Losing myself again.

Veggies are healthier.

Now you and I,
You know it cant work.
Its all fun and games
Till someone gets hurt.

And I don't want that to be me so just leave me alone alreadyyyy T.T

Of mackerels, tunas and veggies. Hahah. Totally describes my life XD

Ahahaha yay I'm so happy Eggie's iTouch revived!! :D :D :D Apple products are crazy sometimes O:

Happy birthday Sally! :D oh isn't Sally such a nice name :3

I baked chocolate chip cookies today! :D aka Raintree Cafe's double chocolate :9 which is SOO TOTALLY overpriced!! Lol anyway I'm sick of it already after today><

Haiz. Stupid noob tuna doesn't know where my second blog/new blogskin is-.- yunomakemeasandwich.blogspot.com!

Haha thanks Eggie!^^ actually the blogskin was kinda rushed cos I had to off com ): that explains the slight shift in the background T.T and I was using Paint to do it :6 but nevertheless! Its my best so far :D

Which makes me realise, this blogskin is so ugly T.T but its speciallll :/ aah whatever ): maybe I'll do a 1D and Owl City one someday^^ lol its been 5mths since I made a skin O.o

Omggg. Call Me Maybe is so difficult on guitar-.-

PS. GO TAKE THAT RATE YOUR BOYFRIEND TEST ON YUNISEANDTHENOMS.BLOGSPOT.COM AHAHAH HILARIOUS XD

I love Alli Simpson! <3 http://allisimpson.com/how-to-get-over-a-breakup/