What is life. What am I doing. Everything feels like deja vu. It's always the same mistakes. So tired of the same old games now I need something new in my life.

Sigh whatever la. Holding on to a tiny piece of hope that I'd pass math but nooo. To be expected anyway I'm too stupid for math and nobody's helping. Kinda close to passing. Kinda. If they moderate the paper I guess. But whatever. I'm used to failing lately. Not that I want to, of course.

Rock Night 2013 was great and awesome beyond words :') I know awesome is overrated but really. Every band was soooo good! Besides some people of course but it's not my place to say. Still it was super memorable and although I have accumulating sleep debt and I'm going home really late, it was worth it. Worth my 4 bucks :)

HAHA and Minhao was sorry for not giving me his extra free tickets but it's okayyy~ my favourite band is...yknow. :)

Aah super embarrassing things I did today omg but yeah THANKYOU FARAH I'LL REMEMBER THIS FOR LIFE AND NEVER REGRET IT :')

CLOSEST I HAVE EVER BEEN TO FAMOUS PEOPLE.

Late for school today but that's cos I was taking my time~ student council presidential elections taking up my extra sleep time hmph. Anyways I took 5 voting slips and voted 3 for Julian, 1 for John and 1 for Don :) Julian will most probably win since he's so capable, confident and cuteee!

Bio was LSS so scary but she didn't scold me for my fringe whoa :0 and that video was sooo disturbing. One of the few times I wonder why do I have to sit next to Grant T.T

Yay I loveee teaching :3 although I don't think Benjamin really likes me :/ I hope I make a good teacher :X gave Dave smarties because he 'won' by completing the worksheet first xD

Keep thinking today is Friday weep weep. Stupid Tristan how am I supposed to get my ticket for rock night nowww.

I keep giving chances but you keep letting me down.

Saw Hakeem today! In the bus :3 and he didn't recognise me._. But yay it's great I love meeting 6A'09 peeps and talking and catching up like how much have we all matured and stuff it's amazing hahaha.

Soo NJC Confessions is so DEAD the only thing I read now is Victorian Confessions :/ and it's funny how they're complaining about IP haha that's IP for you man. You don't choose subjects, you learn everything and anything, you have a hell load of weird content plus enrichment and it's considered "full day" instead of "half day" in the PSLE book but ohwell. Taste of faliure~ you'll get used to it :)

Wow I think I shall never say "goodluck" or "all the best" to anyone ever again. And that's just sad ohwell. Bah. Whatever. I'll think about it. It's the thought that counts right? Wrong. It's the prayers haha.

Anyways LA test was okay but I shall not post anything about it here cos it would mean that I'm leaking info :( but the questions were...overwhelming. I hope I did well ><

Sian so much work to do I shall be moody. Very moody.

Although I had happy stuff and happy thoughts. Had.

On a happier note, today was an extremely very fabulous good hair day hehe :3 like the days when I wake up or the days when I stay at home :'D

Soo didn't do anything ytd :( I swear taking naps doesn't help. And I've been late for school ever so often I'll resign to the fact that I'm gonna get CWO T.T

So happy for my NAPFA haha. Sorta.
Sit and Reach - A
Inclined Pull Up - A
Sit ups - A
Standing Broad Jump - B (super disappointed with myself cos I needed 1cm more to A :()
Shuttle Run - B (Yay an improvement from D x))
2.4 - D

Sigh. I should run more and improve my timing being last suuucks :'( and yes, as always I could have gotten gold weep weep :( was taking 5stations with gastric/cramps I feel my shy abs coming on lol.

AEP was good but heh I'm so tired I slept from 130-230pm and was almost late :X shooting jacket induces sleep~

Because when everything is wrong and you start doubting everything I say, I hope that those words, those memories you've forgotten, will remind you of what you mean to me. Something more concrete, than what I say in the heat of the moment. Something from the bottom of my heart, carefully put into words, wrapped with my love for you. Small, silly notes, love letters, but I'm childish like that. Actions speak louder than words, they say, but words are power when your actions fail to prove anything.

Something out of place that I really have to say: I'm not a photographer, but I can picture you and I together.

Hectic week and the deadlines are drawing closer and yet I'm falling sick. Ate some bad food and vomitted. First time in years. Ran 2.4 in a sucky timing but hey, I improved and went up a grade :) yes I run really slow it's equivalent to walking and everyone laps me sigh. What happeneddd.

However, today is a pretty good day :) IH presentation was good I guess :D and yayyy I have made my intrest in floorball known :) hopefully I'll be there soon :') went to the range to give a letter to my ex-mortal and took my shooting journal home. Ah. Memories. Well not gonna make any more anyway~

The Summer Set is quite a nice band :)

Tired. If you want it that way I'll accept it then. Tired of being nice to everyone wtf nothing is appreciated. So angry and upset sigh.

Teehee okay I'll make it a point to blog at least once a week :) because it's pretty obvious if I blog alot it means I'm feeling emotional heh.

So today I crazily woke up at 630am so well yeah I reached school at 815am LOL. Thank God it was raining super heavily :') so yeap IH presentation luckily on Friday phew :D math test was horrible I wish I had a sharp mind sigh. Tomorrow there's bio practical and malay compo weep weep. But yay after that there's BHPS tutoring ^_^ bought toblerone for those little p6 kids :) and I also bought my cat's birthday presents which are cat treats whee so heh I'm kinda broke now :/

Just giving you a feel of how you treat me. Can't remember the last time we had a real conversation. But then again how is that even of any importance. Doesn't hold anything against personal commitments or whatever. Please. Take me or leave me. Don't be halfway in between.

I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And he'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed his number and confessed to him
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing.

Meh haven't blogged in a long time cause I've been really really busy (haha that's what I always say :X) but isn't it obvious?? I'm sleeping at like 2am on a Sunday night D: heh mostly cos I took a nap already (but I'm still tired and I DRANK THIS SUPER DUPER YUMMY (if coffee is supposed to be yummy) ORGANIC COFFEE FROM IKEA. HAHAHA IT'S GREAT. Ah the high class taste of brewed coffee :3 what have I become from hating coffee to drinking mocha to drinking 3in1s to drinking brewed coffee :/

Yknow teaching is really fun :) it's kinda scary because I kinda feel like living my childhood dream of becoming a teacher >< but ohwell in the meantime, I teach naughty primary 6 kids maths hehe :) I must remember to bring chocolates for them :/ AND YAH I'M TEACHING PRIMARY SCHOOL MATH FOR FREE LIKE IF YOU NEED HELP AND STUFF WHO WANTS FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME~ because education and knowledge is priceless :) and yes, I'm busy but it's okay :)

Felt like quitting shooting (again) and ranted on Twitter. Unlucky me because many people decided to comfort me and 'beg me to stay' and 'give us another chance' because 'I have the potential'. Truthfully, everyone is making me feel bad. It's not like they treated me bad, it's that I choose to be introverted. Maybe shooting is like a family afterall. But I love the sport, not the people. They make me change my mind I don't know what to do I'm so indecisive. I used to stand convicted with my decision to quit. Thank God nobody can see these tears. Why it melts my heart cause maybe they do actually care about me and acknowledge my existence. Maybe. But still I don't get the point of staying when I'm not good enough for anyone. Sure I've got the potential but I don't do anything much about it. Shooting 350+ without training is no big deal.

And yet another childhood memory is beginning to resurface, calling out to me. Floorball, I miss you.

Saddest weekend ever lol didn't get to sleep in at all :( Saturday was Singapore Junior Chemistry Olympiad (SJChO) so had to go to RI early. Btw RI is gorgeous. Although I probably only saw like 1/20 of the whole school heh. SJChO was difficult :( obviously. But I don't regret paying $12 for it :) it was fun and challenging I guess. Ate KFC with Christel and Thulasie after that and I ate quite a lot of Thulasie's cheese fries since she couldn't finish #guilty

Did quite a lot of AEP (in my opinion) after that too. But I still haven't finished two prep boards :'( and my drawing sucks but I must hurry or I'll forget all my ideas D;

Volunteered for NTUC Run 350 and that was a really bad idea. Next time, I'll volunteer for stuff which are not from the school website >.> oh well so much for CIP and $25 :/ not like I need the CIP hours anyway I volunteer waaay too much :(

So yeah it was yet another overnight CIP :D slept on pavements like a hobo and I'm sooo tired now on the way to school (almost late again duhh) though I slept from like 5pm-6am (waking up at 230am because I felt guilty for not doing work but I fell asleep again). Yeap another week of deadlines to meet. Sigh. When am I gonna graduate with straight As.

So Tuesday I was late by like 4 seconds because I took the confirm late train. Wednesday I was gonna be early but guess what? I overslept from Botanic Gardens to Bouna Vista >.>" and I was sleeping while standing. Mean people who didn't wake me up. Sigh. 10 seconds late. Thursday I was almost late but I ran. Lol can you believe it I was gonna be late on a Thursday ;_;

Anyways. I had a nice dream last night xD more like a nightmare-dream cos there were some undesirable stuff which happened :/ but I can't help thinking of my AEP coursework in my nightmare-dream which was soooo nice!! And inspiring :') ohwell it also kinda sucks when you think about schoolwork while sleeping. ;_;

GAH needa get 25/30 for next MI test to just scrape through an A. Impossibruuu.