Whoops I'm posting again >.> nehmind I'm going to sleep anyways!

Sigh why you no reply me :( Me so saddd gah. Dammit why am I so affected by you. Now is definitely not the time.

Bleh I don't get how and why people take ootds and selcas. So I'm gonna stop too because its just dumb and bimbotic. Stop for a long long time hopefully. And how do they even take in the first place just makes me wonder cause its really difficult for me._.

Here's a typical bimbo selca which I took on Wednesday I think? Who cares. Everytime I take a new one the old one looks hideous so I'm not surprised this one is too. Apps used: Instagram + Instaframe + Adobe Photoshop Express.

Its always times like these when I think of you and I wonder if you ever think of me.

EDIT: Forget it. Forget everything I said to you. I take it all back. But really, don't let me be the last to know. I wasted my nights. Wasted my time. Wasted my effort. Wasted my words. Wasted my care.

Meh. Sorry for not blogging as often as I usually do but I'm a busy person :P so yeahh anyways, this will be the last post until YEA is over!! O: which means exactly 2 weeks of not posting! Sorry guys exams are important :3 and the only reason I'm posting this is cause I'm waiting for this stupid face mask to dry so I can peel it off XD

Actually its cause I'm kinda scared. The fact that so many people started revising already. So yeah, don't expect long conversations with me anymore.

On a hiatus from Blogger, Instagram and Facebook! Twitter will be less than active :P

If we ever meet again.

Ahahhahaa I know that feeling bro.

Okay before I start I just wanna say that today sucks in the morning Ms Selva was so angry I think my Chem really can't make it. Although its not my worst subject lol.

Ahahah today was SPIRE EXHIBITION FAIR!!! And Eunice, Ethan and I got nominated for Best Biology Poster by Scary Teacher Fiona-something I think! She was really scary and scrutinising our poster D: but hehh thanks :3 Mr Yong was nice too! He said our research had potential to develop further :'D hahah I wish><

Picture of Erips group with Myself Hung!! :)

I DID NOT REALISE MYSELF HUNG DYED HER HAIR UNTIL TODAY AND ETHAN TOLD ME ITS BEEN LIKE THAT SINCE AFTER SEPTEMBER HOLIDAYS?!?!

AND THERE WAS FREE CAFE FOOD HAHAH I LOVE RESEARCH DEPT. Hehh greedy me went to take one Lime Juice, 4 small pieces of Honey Baked Ham Sandwich and 1 small piece of Tuna Sandwich. WHICH IS ALTOGETHER WORTH $3.40 OMG AT THE MONEY I SAVE :')

Hahah yknow actually I was really thinking of making a card and getting a present for you but I changed my mind lol. Sorry not a wish since its not appreciated anyway. And I don't have the time XD

Well whatever. Hope you remember the ones who actually cared and stayed up for you exactly one year and 19hours ago.

When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
I know its way too late but happy birthday.

Lol I'd be really angry if I were dragged in a storm in my best dress._. ahahah sometimes I think Taylor Swift doesn't make sense xP but most of her songs have good lyrics :3

Bleh typing this in the MRT on the way home from school after AEP :( sigh I'm so tired T.T lucky today quite slack :X and I had to present the storyboard alone because Andrea and Ray didn't come >:( it was horribly awkward >< but better than mock trial XD where my hands were seriously shaking omg and my voice was seriously nervous :/

Anyway all the IH mock trials are over^^ today was Court C teehee Stephanie won! :D ahahaha which means that all three courts nobody was guilty so who was the one who should be charged for starting the war? 0:

Okay I wanted to type more but suddenly I'm having this extremely horrible stomach ache help!!!

Oh and I wanted to not spend anything today but since I had AEP so the only thing I bought today was a $1.20 hotdog><

Kthxbai I am really dyinggg and I need to get home quickkk.

Urghh Bio stretched until 5pm again today I am so pissed-.- so of course, I fell asleep._. In Phy also>< I think I just can't stay awake in 1.5hr lessons :/ except Malay lol.

Sigh PE was supposed to be fun. I love frisbee. But being in Kenson's team is so stressful and depressing. I wonder if it even looks like I'm making an effort to catch or something. Sighh. I don't know. I bet he purposely chose who to be in his team cause we were all the pro people :/ in a sense. Gah. Seriously. I rather play against him than with him. Play against him at least can break his ego, play with him your own ego break sia.

Okay I'm sorry for being depressed :3 I'm in quite a good mood actually hahah. Like really. I don't know why I'm laughing at this omg I feel my abs coming ahahahhaha.

Friendzoned. Good job, me.

Now I know what they say. Why they say. You disgust me, seriously. What was I thinking. Say hello to goodbye.

So I was right all along. Trust my intuition.

URGHHH I AM SO ANGUHREEE WAIIII.

But really, you don't care, do you?

Why am I wasting my time? Haven't I waited enough?

Sometimes I think that I know you. Sometimes you make me think that I know you. But truth is, I don't. Not at all.

"So tell me darling do you wish we fall in love?"
"Yeah, all the time."
- The Saltwater Room, Owl City

You seem like the type to love 'em and leave 'em.

Raisin cookies that look like chocolate chip cookies are the main reason I have trust issues. Ahahah I got that from Mr Han's IH slide sometime ago XD

GONNA UPDATE MY SECOND BLOG AFTER FOREVER :3

But really. Once bitten, twice shy. Twice bitten, never gonna try.

Meh. I feel so sad for me :/ but really, I won't know...

Gah. Whyyy. Why are you telling me this but indirectly? Why are you hinting to me?

I have stooped too low to be reading this. DON'T GET ME WRONG I WAS SEARCHING FOR SONG LYRICS OKAY.

Well the day didn't start out so good I'm sorry :( sigh. I think I expect too much :( anyways, after that things got better! :D slacked for the whole of Malay, tried my best to stay awake in Bio, was brain dead during Math, MI lecture slot became LA essay which I think I wrote crap again but I hope I did well :(

AND HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY MOCKTRIAL YAYY HITLER IS NOT GUILTY!!! Good job Naimi and Grant! :D special thanks to Sarah and Tristan for 'collaborating' :3 And thankyou to YY (judge) and Court A (jury) who were really fair! :) especially Ishin and Ray who gave really good reasons to support their opinion^^ good job to prosecution too :) I'm sorry Yanyu for hissing at you I didn't mean to :( aah I'm so happy and overwhelmed~ hard work paid off :)

No hard feelings. Goodluck court C :)

Pizza yumyum.

Hohoho I'm starting to be badass and not blogging everyday but too bad cause I'm busy.

Ohgawddd IH mock trial sucks I wish I was a stupid witness who doesn't have to do anything >.>

Got back LA essay from super long ago the one which we did on a Thursday morning which I thought I wrote out of point. Surprisingly Mr Chan said that question was a good choice and only one person in the whole class wrote it and got high marks. Why I am honoured :3

Aah so many things happened today I don't know what to think good or bad sad or happy angry or disappointed guilty or innocent true or fake.

Freaking tired now and why does it feel like I miss you this is just wrong stop it me.

Can it please rain tmr it hasn't rained in so long.

I hate myself for this. I didn't mean to care this much. Should have just kept my mouth shut like how I always do. Nobody can tell the difference anyway. Aah really what am I to do now?

Yeah blogging at 4.30 in the morning cause my guilty conscience woke me up. I want to sleep but I can't stop thinking. Pray that this week will be better.

Young love is taking over me.

Hahah. Don't think I don't know this. You have got to be majorly underestimating me. Question is, how much will be enough?

Adrenaline rush.

Week is over!! (Y) I'm tired :( Sigh. I'm not thinking enough and letting my emotions go :/ on the bright side, I'm so over you~

Help. I don't know who to trust :(

Sigh. When "We'll talk about this at home." never happens, you know its time to drop the topic.

Random shitz XD

Lol I was too lazy to post ytd. Not sorry at all XD

But today yes because it is important. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIALL HAVE A GOOD ONE! I absolutely love this pic :D

Yay halfday tmr!!! Though its abit weird that its school starting later but who cares! Halfday is halfday! :D I think its better luh cos Wednesday end school very late :((

AEP is kinda urgh. I admit I'm not pro at photoshop and I just try to help what I can but can you not explicitly ask me? I mean like, if I were in your shoes, I'll just find it out myself. ITS NOT THAT HARD TO GOOGLE FOR A FONT IMAGE GENERATOR RIGHT??

Omg Jazzmen what is wrong with you._. awkward ttm on twitter :/

Achievement unlocked - Didn't sleep in any lesson today without drinking coffee! :D and today was such a long day :3

Stupid PE test I only came for one lesson and they gave us a 5min graded 10% test! >:( without prior notice too-.- lucky I was half paying attention while fangirling over Jedward :/

STEPHANIE GAVE ME A JEDWARD POSTER (with bigbang behind it lol) YAYY THANKS MOMMY <3 data-blogger-escaped-br="br">
So today Christel was talking to me about going VJ which seemed like an awfully good and tempting idea!

Hahah even Sarah wants to transfer to HwaChong :3 even Petrina wants to go to a poly. See guys. Don't come to NJ.

Lol JH1s boarding today crazy lah they all._.

You know the more I think about it, the more I want to go VJ :/ le sigh. Top 3% of cohort are you kidding me please have some mercy on IP kids.

I love this song. It cheers me up besides Young Love :)

When I grow up and have kids I want to be everything they need. I want to be smart so I can teach them, I want to be rich so I can support them, I want to be happy so they'll be happy too.

Not Good Enough.

HEY MOMMY<3

Hello. Its the first time I actually woke up in the morning after so long. (Actually its kinda after 4 days lol) So anyway, I'm shaking. And I can't stop it.

I'm shaking from the pain that's in my head just want to crawl into my bed and throw away the life I led.

Gah mind over body. I am fine. I am good. I am feeling healthy. I am energetic and rejuvenated.

Yes I only had two hours of sleep. And funny thing is, before going to sleep I was thinking of waking up at 12pm or 10am-.- Planning on taking naps throughout the day.

And baby everything that I have is yours
You will never go cold or hungry
I'll be there when you're insecure
Let you know that you're always lovely.

I need this.

Sigh. I know that after this post everybody will suddenly be obsessed with Jedward-.- How annoying. But anyway, I'll still put this >< THIS VIDEO DESERVES MORE VIEWS THAN THIS.

Meh Saturday already. Can't believe I woke up at 1.45pm. There seems to be too little light hours in a day. Or maybe cos I keep doing work at night lol. Finished Chem after so long it seemed like forever. But I think Math will take longer sigh. Why do I fail subjects people don't fail? Like Physics. Ohgod I'm such a failure. Sorry about all the depressing posts lately. Its really getting into me. I can't stop my stomach from hurting and I know its cause of all this negativity but it really hurts although I try to think about 'mind over body' it doesn't work. Sorry for the long sentence. I can't help it.

Selling my Need You Now and A Thousand Suns album.

Hmm funny but I don't have a certain affinity to American musicians. Justin is Canadian, Niall, John and Edward are Irish, Zayn is British and Cody is Australian :D

I hope I get well soon physically and mentally. Love heals? I'm in love with Jedward <3 

What am I doing with my life? NJ really screwed it up. I should have never stepped into this place. What have I achieved? Nothing. You can hardly count friends. Screwed up relationships. Screwed up studies. Screwed up leadership. Seriously. I've been thinking. In these three years, no awards, no recognition, not a CCA leader, not a councillor. Not in Dean's List for a full year, not in any accelerated class. What am I doing with my life?

Oh I found out the cause of my stomach upset.
1. Didn't eat dinner.
2. Eat spoilt/improper food.
3. Sleep after eating.
4. Eating too little.
5. Stress.

GG lah.

Didn't mean to spam post but I'm bored and I always update my blog when I'm bored :/

Sigh I wish I didn't have so many problems. Its scary to think that I'm really screwed for ass week (I really don't care about YEA cos it sounds dumb). But really (hmm I seem to be using 'really' a lot) I think I might just die under this avalanche of negativity.

Good to know that you know that you're the one who's spoiling my mood.

I'm feeling like a star and you can't stop my shine.

Gah one thing I hate about not being in boarding is dreams. I keep getting dreams when I sleep at home and it makes me really tired when I wake up. And its not even those kind of dreams which tell you signs. Its those kind of stupid, senseless dreams which involve random people like Jazzmen wth. And other NJ people whom I shall not name cos its embarrassing enough.

Second thing I hate about being at home is my lousy ultra fail time management. Haven't done anything constructive or productive and my stomach is acting up again because I didn't eat dinner and I forgot that I'll die if I don't eat dinner so ohwell.

Cleaned my cupboard today. Ohman the amount of school based shirts is too damn high I can wear a different one everyday for a month. And yes, I split my clothes into school clothes and going out clothes._.

Annoyed that I grew so fat I can't fit into my straight cut FBTs which is xs. I am such a fatass zzz.

Okay I really need to go my stomach is killing me.

I am not the only one who is broken.

Hahah. I love Instagram for the fact that people are more honest in giving likes. I think. Facebook is crazy. Camwhore pictures which have 80+ likes and they aren't even nice-.-

I don't do ootds because what I wear everyday has no fashion sense whatever and the pictures which do are those which I actually bother lol. Instagram: pitchdarkx :)

ps. Is it that obvious how this picture is taken? :(

Gah I hate busses which have seats pointing in the opposite direction of everybody because its so weird to be looking at everyone._. and yes, I'm typing this now because I'm at this horrible seat so I have to look like I'm doing something right? T.T

Gonna be late for Mr Phua's ARG breakfast :( oh wait I'm already late its 8.07am now sigh.

Okay I ran out of things to write and I'm still in the bus sitting at this weird seat gah.

My favourite fruit juice is watermelon juice.

Shooting today gah what a waste of time I'm so tired :/

Anyways. After swimming for two days my hair is so horrible omg. I need conditionerrr. Oh I also need new earpieces I can't be wearing headphones forever-.-

Aiya I'm so upset. Don't think I can do so many inclined pull ups already since I can't do planks anymore I don't know why. Urgh I loved planks. Put on 2kg in one term and I'm no longer underweight. Fatfatfat I should exercise and get abs-.-

Went to swim again today. I think there's something wrong with my legs :/ and lol, I swim four times a year only XD

Bored but I think I should do work :( I don't know, I always thought I slept a moderate amount but I'm really tired now. Grahh shooting tmr what a waste of time.

Sigh. Today is the last.

Until I'm back in Singapore :') I eat alot lately :(

Went for a swim today! XD

Hey baby won't you look my way I can be your new addiction.

Is talking to me and then ditching me supposed to be a turn-on? No, it does not make me want you more.

Thanks guys :)



You had me falling for you honey and it never would've gone away
You used to shine so bright but I watched all of it fade.