Zzz. So much work to do omg and its Sunday alreadyyy T.T the only thing that makes me happy is eating the Dragon Beard Candy thingy from Penang XD

Neways. I was late for religious class by likee half an hour-.- seriously there's no point goinggg. Lol okay actually there is. Cause now I'm really confused and unsure what to do in life :(

Option 1: Get good grades for As and get ASTAR IBN scholarship for six years for a Masters in Biotech and I get to work is Biopolis~

Option 2: Get Islamic Studies Diploma and go to some specialized place and then get a degree in Islamic Studies from IIUM or USIM :/

No one wants to dig that deep, let me take you underneath.

Hahah. I downloaded an app! :D which is less dumb than Instawhatever and has everything in one app LOL. Zzz perhaps I should change hairstyle so as to not get caught for my fringe anymore :( stupid Shan Shan-.-

And yes, I can't help that half my face is always weird>< the left half. That's why my picture on the top left of this page is half my face which is the mirror image of my right eye cos my left eye just doesn't look right._.

You know your naked love is what I'm dreaming of.

Oh aren't you lucky :)

Hello, I missed you quite terribly.

The good thing is it does not go against my conscience anymore.

Hahah! Eye dissection today everyone was so excited :3 the model was so interesting now LOL.

Ended at 1pm but I'm gonna go IH fieldwork at 2pm :'( SADDD. I wanna check out T.T

Teehee. I really think I like you :D the you who I used to know :D

Omg school ended at 1.30pm today and since we canceled IH fieldwork I went back to boarding and slept till 6pm!! Hahah paid my sleep debt :'D

THANKS YY FOR TELLING ME THAT WHATSAPP WAS FREE TODAY!!! :D

Friday tmr :)

Hahah. House session during leadership was dumb :6 boarding house session was worse. Seriously, green rings?! I voted for highlights/extensions and masks like masquerade ball. SO MUCH BETTER. But the game was fun :D

And I totally regret taking PE cos it was peer review and IT JUST SUCKED OKAY. Even last week's game was better-.-

Yay I didn't have to go for stupid cultural mapping XD

Erips with Myself was scary D:

Genuine or desperate? I'm thinking the latter. One does not simply make convenience friends and leave them.

Hmm I think this song is sick but it has a nice tune when Grant sings it :D

Hahah so I slept at 10.15pm thinking that I would nap for 15mins and I ended up sleeping for 4hours instead. Neways, I know I posted this at a different time but I'm really typing this out at 2.30am!! Haiz. I wanna go toilet but I'm scared :X I WANNA STAY ON 6TH FLOOR WTH IS WRONG WITH THE BOARDING SCHOOL MANAGEMENT!!

Haha well enough of that. Apparently I didn't have much to do during study prep today and I don't know why O:

Oh and now there's InstaCollage LOL.

Yknow. I was planning to text you since it was really bugging me already but ohwell. Some people unintentionally made me realise how dumb that is. Tsk. I'll never be replaced no matter what.

Like it or not even though she's a lot like me we're not the same. And yeah yeah yeah I'm a lot to handle you don't know trouble I'm a hell of a scandal me I'm a scene I'm a drama queen I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen.

Monday again :(( hahah today I didn't go down to eat some disgusting breakfast but instead, I ate home food! :D I'm homesick. Haiz.

My crazy cat in a bag! :D Let the cat out of the bag LOL.

Lol I seriously don't know what's wrong with my website counter :( its 13k+ guys! Thanks so much for your visits though I know most of it's due to some ulterior motive.

Facebook is so deaddd. Go twitter everyone~

Don't misunderstand me when I'm nice to you. Cause you know I only do that for the sake of doing it.

Don't think that just cause I'm close to someone, I like being with that person. Cause most of the time that's not true.

Urgh. I woke up at 3pm and got nagged at. Helloo? I'm a growing child I need 8hours of sleep a day and I have loads of sleep debt from boarding. I only got 13hours of sleep (makes up for an extra hour each weekday) but that's obviously not enough. And not as if my sleep was so fantastic anyway. Seriously. I even think I was sleep-eating this morning. And then accuse me of being black faced. Its soo not true ugh. Woke up with a sore throat and I'm not even hungry.

Solitude is bliss. I'm sick of 'friends' who backstab. Who talk to me only when they need something or have nobody else to talk to. Seriously. Go and be foreveralone yourself cause I'm not there to be your decoration or a hypocrite and act as if I'm so close to you and BFF whatever. Its too bad for you if you can't stand being alone and lose face cause I'm fine with that.

Ahh. I love boarding alone :) Loved this week :)

Hahah actually I don't really remember what happened today cos I just ate my SUPER DELICIOUS AND YUMMY DINNER XD aah I miss home food :')

Hrmmm. I only remember E&D where the JH4s made a musical thingy XD it was kinda nice la but boring also :( cos the musical was so short (like 15mins) and the booths were all so dumb. I took a pink heart shaped balloon though :D (and Stephanie gave me a blue one later on XD) So neways I discussed IH after that and went back to boarding at 230pm like a boss :D not really actually cos ppl like Kenson left earlier ;(

Hehh so after that I went to shooting range to claim my drink from Eunice but it turned out to be Marks and Spencers chocolates (which Victoria and me shared and I gave the rest to Shao cos it was too chocolatey I couldn't stand it). So on my way down I saw Dict near the hall corridor there and we were walking in opposite directions and he suddenly waved and smiled at me so ohwell I just reciprocated lorh. Y u so random. And as expected, as I was walking down I saw J who was going up. And he ignored me so I reciprocated too. Haha actually I was concentrating on walking down and not falling cos the stairs are just so horrible. Pleased to meet you, by the way.

"Keep your friends close, but keep your enemies closer."

Boo camwhoring alone isn't fun. Yixuan faster come back and camwhore with meee. Lol btw this picture is mirror imaged XD boarding mirror is fantastic :3

Yo I'm back after not updating for two days cos I was busy :P so here's an update on what I did on Thursday! LOL.

Umm I had Physics consol again but this time it was NingHT and it was SUPER boring and long that I accidentally fell asleep for 5mins>< but really, it sucked compared to last week which took 40mins only!! Oh and I figured out that teacher is Mr Tan I think! And yes, I actually did listen and copy down notes :3 and at the end of consol she was like "And actually all these not tested I'm just telling you extra info." AND I'M LIKE WTS THANKS FOR WASTING MY TIME-.-

So after that I went dumbdumb shooting handover. I have that strong urge to quit again. I can't stand it okay. Stop pushing me to go for all these bonding crap. Be grateful that I actually make an effort to come down for training already. Seriously. Want us to train 5hr per week EXCLUDING PT AND COACH TRAINING. Sure ya'll can commit to that but I can't and I won't. I mean like I'm using a freaking SHARED gun so I can't train on Mondays and Fridays. Tuesday I have AEP and Thursday I have Physics consol so the fact that I actually make time to train is good already. Anyways after that I went to eat dinner with Ethan! :D I think the food was quite nice but I ate too fast to take a picture :( It was lemon chicken and kangkong and tofu btw :D and the drink was what I thought lychee juice is but Ethan says that there's no such thing as lychee juice!!!

Teehee during study prep me, Eunice and Ann-Marie went to piano room! :D Eunice was playing soo beautifully!!! Here's a picture of The Great Pianist E. Foo. Oh I went to sleep in Ann-Marie's room last night :D OH AND WE HAD MENTORING WITH MR WEE! And he expressed his distaste as I was wearing a Justin Bieber shirt hmph :(

Warning: This post shall be in Malay cause I'm annoyed like that. And well, I need to improve it anyway.

Aku rasa bahawa hari ini tidak begitu membingungkan seperti hari yang lain. Akan tetapi, aku masih berasa sakit dan agaknya selesema ini semakin teruk. Sedang membatuk-.-

Gah. Pada pendapatku, hari ini sungguh membosankan. Terlalu banyak waktu rehat sehingga aku membuat perkara-perkara yang tidak mendatangkan faedah. Pelajaran yang penting hanya adalah bahasa orang putih (aku terpaksa menyampaikan sesuatu pertuturan yang sepanjang enam-puluh saat). Akan tetapi aku sungguh bangga kerana gagasanku dan seorang lagi rakanku ditulis olehku! :) Oh. Dan pelajaran kimia. Banyak kerja rumah. Aku letih.

Setelah itu semua orang terpaksa menyambut hari keharmonian kaum. Acara-acara yang disediakan sungguh membosankan. Ada juga ketidakselesaan tetapi aku menguatkan diri untuk melalui halangan ini.

Aku tidak hairan apabila ternampak beberapa informasi di media massa tentang perkara itu. Aku sudah tidak peduli. Sememangnya, aku seorang yang hanya mementingkan diriku sendiri. Aku akan mengorbankan persahabatanku dengan sesiapa sahaja demi mementingkan perkara-perkara yang aku mengambil berat tentang. Habislah. Tentu semua orang akan benci dan dengkiku. Terutama sekali kerana kelakuanku tadi yang agak jelas. Apa sahajalah. Aku memang ada seribu perkara yang sedang bermain-main di fikiranku sekarang. Pergilah kamu semua. Aku tidak mahu memandangmu lagi. Aku sudah tidak mencintaimu lagi. Puas aku menunggu.

I've been standing here my whole life
Everything I've seen twice, now it's time I realize
It's spinnin' back around now, on this road I'm crawling
Save me cause I'm falling, now I can't seem to breathe right.

My mood has lifted :) I think I might just ace my Sem2 :')

ps. Omg I'm dumb I just knew that my phone can sync with iTunes through wifi._. Lol I bring cable for what-.-

Hahah today we went La Salle (omg I forgot how to spell it ><) for AEP to see the SYF gallery :D some of them were really cool but I'm too lazy to elaborate so if you wanna know then go there! :D its near Little India XD

Anyways. I'm having a really bad headache and runny nose :/ and the sore throat I had ytd/this morning got worse ohno I can't speak :(

Just ate porridge though XD Listening to Adam Lambert now! I like Better Than I Know Myself, Outlaws of Love, Runnin and Underneath best :D Thanks Grant :)

SHIT I'M GONNA DIE OF EXCESSIVE INHALATION OF INSECT SPRAY. Funny cause its been a week since I sprayed yet the smell still lingers and I know my sore throat is due to that. And I got LA speech tmr. Great.

This is the end. Right back to square -1 perhaps. Good luck to you and may our paths never cross again.

Omg Monday blues. Hahah actually today wasn't bad I DIDN'T SLEEP IN PHYSICS AND MATH AT ALL! :D Lol actually cause I was eating XD Koko Krunch! :) I am soo hungry nowadays D: Oh and also cause I slept during lunch >< IT WAS SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE. Lucky I sit at the back so I just lean against the lockers hehh. Lol yeah I can't sleep unless I'm lying down or leaning against something :/

So anyway! I forgot to say :D Saturday I ate Pastamania with my sister and an...acquaintance LOL. I just realised that their salad is actually pretty good omg! Hahah. Been a long time since I ate Pastamania :)

Sunday I went to Singapore Science Center!! The Sultans of Science exhibit :D with religious class haha! I love outings :3 Here's a really big group picture cause I think this is the nicest XD


Andand! Did you know! Practically everything was first discovered by Muslims :) #proud Like you know those Roman arches at the top of the door? Muslims designed a better one :D and the very first hang gliders, cameras, optical illusions, medicine and dentistry and geography and blood circulatory system and EVERYTHING I tell you! <3 Oh and, Newton's Laws too. Okay perhaps I'll hate physics a little lesser now >< Point is: Finally. Everyone is starting to see the light.

Let the rediscovery begin.

OMG HAHAH MY CAT IS SO CUTE :D HE WAS PLAYING WITH THE APPLE I WAS GONNA EAT >< SO PHOTOGENIC!! XD

Sure it hurts me sometimes but I can live with that.

Omg its damn scary I think there's food poisoning in school or something so many ppl absent today! :O Hahah. I got food poisoning from boarding food in JH1-.-

Gah. I got cheated from the malay stall auntie man. One of them totally sucks and the other one is super nice <3<3<3 Just my luck.

Today I went for physics consol haha! It was scary cos I was the only JH3 there and the rest were JH4 besides Ashleigh and Ronald or whatever his name is I forgot who left after asking one question cos apparently there's chem consol going on at the same time LOL. So anyway! I learnt more in 40mins of consol than I did in one whole semester wth!! I like that teacher O: I think he's JH4 teacher cos I really dunno him haha XD But he's gooood. Better than NingHT omg :( I might just ace physics now :'D

Oh did I mention? I saw the principal's son XD he's sooo tall O: not bad looking I think. I don't know. It was exciting :D I guess that's the only good thing about living on level 7-.-

Andand. Yesterday was Careers and Scholarships Fair :D gah. It unnerves me to think that for the past two years I always thought of it as freebies but this year is so urgh. Its hard.

Ohwell. I'm prolly not gonna go down for dinner tonight cos I'm scared I'll get food poisoning again O: I have lotsa food in my room anyway XD

Seeyah.

I feel accomplished :) I'm so over you. Doesn't matter anymore. I gave you everything and I don't owe you anything. Doesn't matter what you have cause I will always be better than you. Double confirm plus chop.

Throw away the memories of you and I. Now you're just another picture to burn.

All around me is silver and gold, no my heart never heals my heart only feels like stone.

Hahah. Thanks YY and everyone who voted for me><

Crazy Yixuan didn't wake up so we ended up waking up at 730am! O:

Yeh I'm posting this during LA cause he's so boring I wish Ms Khoo was still teaching us :(

GAH MY BAG IS WET COS MY BOTTLE SPILLED AND ALL MY STUFF ARE WET T.T

GAH TODAY WAS #913BieberFest :( I bet it was soo fun T.T sobs. I shall wear purple to boarding later haha.

Yawn. I regret sleeping so late lol I slept for the whole afternoon but I'm still so tired :( and gonna go back boarding tmr already omg and I have lots of work to do gruhh. Haha I checked out at 11am today :D and woke up at 6am+ and 7am+ and 8am+ cause I scared I would oversleep and miss checkout>< I missed breakfast anyway urgh-.- but I talked to Farah alot since Yixuan went for dance like freaking early >:( help its really unnerving that my rate of excretion has increased now that I'm in boarding and I can't stand boarding toilets!! :(

Ahh I have religious class exam tmr hehh.

Maybe its time for miracles.

Hahah. It really amazes me how the people who detest me and shun me because of some immature reason start becoming like me. Peer pressure. Oh well.

I'm typing this at 430am cause I don't wanna sleep yet>< so yeahh. Night cycling was okay lurh. It sucked actually. I COULD HAVE GONE HOME SERIOUSLY OMG WE PASSED BY MY HOUSE TWICE :( anddd the seats suck. Damn pain like shit. I'm glad I'm a girl._. andand. People cycle so slowww! And never give way >:( but I'm happy cause my dad came and cycled with me for awhile XD and I sat beside Eeter on the bus ride back to boarding haha! Urgh the worst thing is we had to queue for toilet super long T.T

I'm super homesick I hate boarding.

Shooting is so tiring. I am never ever going for PT ever again.

Yay I will be night cycling in less than 24 hours time :'D

Gah this sucks everyday wake up so early and sleep so late urghh boarding is even more tiring than staying at home.

Yes, today is another bad day where everything pissed me off again but I won't write it here cause I'm so lazy and tired and honestly I just don't care. This kind of stupid stuff I post on Twitter cause its more efficient XD

Can't wait to go homeee :( I'm homesick.

He was dragging my name through the dirt.

Give me time you know I'm gonna be that.

Hahah. Okay sorry for my horrible post just now cos today is just such a horrible day! :( So continuing from there-.- I went home at 3pm to get gingers for SPIRE and rushed back to boarding and reached at 7pm+++ and had to rush to LT1 for some stupid cultural mapping thingy. AND SUDDENLY THERE'S NO SPIRE TMR GAHH. Wts man I wasted my whole afternoon. Pfft. At least that makes me free tmr-.- I'm not sure which is worse - morning jam or evening jam.

OH AND THE STUPID MRT TICKETING MACHINE SCAMMED MY $5 WTS.

Anyway! MS HO IS SO PRETTY AND NICE OMGOMG. I told her I love Justin Bieber during the intro part XD Teehee. I should be doing dumb LA now but I shall blog awhile using Yixuan's internet stick :D thankyou :) Haha Stephanie aka Bullysun lent me her Big Time Rush album and I'm listening to it now~ :D gonna borrow P!ATD from Sarah! And lend Grant Believe DVD :D

So the best part is I saw this busker/beggar guy I saw with my mum at Eastpoint last last week today at Whitesands! He sings damn nice :'D And he plays acoustic! And he's blind! So I donated ^^ I only donate to those whom I think really put in effort and passion XD And he's one of them :) he was there from like 4pm+ until 6pm+! I really pity him :( AND I WOULD HAVE DONATED MY $5 IF THAT STUPID MACHINE DIDN'T EAT IT UP.

Hahah. Suddenly boarding then rain so much! :D

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone.

Disappointment after disappointment.

URGH WTS I TYPED SO MUCH AND IT DISAPPEARED.

Anyway.

Safety doesn't equal to trust dammit. Singapore is safe but we don't trust each other because we were brought up that way. Dont trust strangers. Singapore has transparency in business cause it brings and attracts investors, not because we're trusting. We probably trust our government with our safety, but in general, Singaporeans aren't trustful.

I HATE LA AND LA TEACHERS. NEW TEACHERS. URGH STUPID. THINK YOU SO GOOD MY FOOT.

Mr Know It Alls.

Anyway again.

PE was frisbee lol. Quite fun luh but I'm so sleepy now gah. And it was in ISH cos got lightning alert. Then few people pushed me and now my knees hurt like crap urghhh.

I overpacked for boarding :( now I have too much food and I forgot to bring alot of things :(( neways~ I played UNO and stress with Yixuan, I kept losing at stress cos I'm just slowww at all the wrong times :( WHATEVER. Lol I know boarding sounds dumb and boring but its not really XD except for the briefing which took sooo long-.- there's study prep today gah.

Painnn. Dammit I hate boarding :/

So I found this on Aisyah's blog a very very long time ago but who cares._.

..."if you're a girl, post this as My kind of guy." ;D No I will not XD

1. Do you need him to be good-looking?
"In my eyes you're perfect."

2. Smart?
Yes. Its not that hard nowadays since Singapore is soo competitive anyway.

3. Preferred age?
Older, unless you have a bright and established future then same age also can._.

4. Preferred height?
Taller. But duhh I wanna grow shorter T.T

5. Has a sense of humour?
"Its everything that you do that makes me wanna laugh."

6. How about piercings?
No. Unless you're Zayn then okay <3

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Yeah. Foreverrr. No turning back. Isn't that true love?

8. Pink hair?
No thanks.

9. Mushy or not?
A reasonable amount maybe?

10. Thin or fat?
Not fat. We naturally grow fatter as we get older anyway ><

11. Black, brown or white (skin colour?)
Its the personality which matters.

12. Long or short hair?
Short duhh._.

13. Plastic or metal?
Organic veggie hehh<3 omglolwhat! Gah. Haiz.

14. Smells nice?
A smell that I like. Perfumes make me allergic and runny nose-ish.

15. Smoker?
No. I'll die due to second hand smoke inhalation._.

16. Drinker?
No. Causes drink driving.

17. Boy-next-door type?
I wouldn't mind lol.

18. Muscular?
Not fat. (yes there are thin non-muscular people like me)

19. Plays the piano?
That'll be really nice.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
I don't mind.

21. Plays violin?
I don't mind.

22. Sings very well?
Doesn't matter I can sing :)

23. Vain?
Vain like Zayn can :D

24. With glasses?
Doesn't matter~

25. With braces?
Its only temporary what. Some guys can look glam with braces O.o

26. Shy type?
Preferably? Loud guys are scary :/

27. Rebel or good boy?
Both? More good though.

28. Active or passive?
At times.

29. Tight or bomb?
Middle middle when its appropriate?

30. Singer or dancer?
Doesn't matter :)

31. Stunner?
At times.

32. Hip hop?
No I hate hiphop :( though the dances are cool XD

33. Earrings?
Zaynnn<3 Meh. No.

34. Mr Count-my-ex-girlfriends-till-you-drop?
Huh what no.

35. Dimples?
I don't mind~

36. Bookworm?
Read together :D

37. Mr Love Letter?
Cute. Anythin.

38. Playful?
Hahah. Reminds me of a puppy. Yesh so cute!

39. Flirt?
With me.

40. Poem writer?
No I'll feel inferior :(

41. Serious?
Serious about serious things.

42. Campus crush?
I wish.

43. Painter?
No I'll feel inferior also :(

44. Religious?
Yes fullstop.

45. Someone who likes to tease?
Know your limits, that's all.

46. Computer games freak? Or internet freak?
Not too much but moderate is okay :D

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Umm nothing against that O.o

48. Loyal or faithful?
Both.

49. Good kisser?
Good enough to me.

50. Loves children?
Yeah :) but honestly, I hate children XD okay uh, selective I guess._.

Honestly, if I love you, you'll have it.

Ps. My favourite is question 13 :) :(

I'll miss you and chase you for a while longer. There comes a time when it ends though.

I always say how I don't need you but its always gonna come right back to you.

Sigh. I'm starting to feel homesick already.

I'm sorry but I have a very bad impression of JH2'12. Not just one case, but more than that. You can't hurt someone like that. And saying things like that just proves that you really don't know what you're saying. It hurts me to see you hurt him. Don't play with people's feelings cause I've been there too and I know what its like. Both ways.

Meh. I'm the kind of person who would rather say "I don't know" than yes or no because its either a promise I can't keep or its too heartless to say no. I'm sorry.

Sigh. Less than three months more. Time to enjoy my ignorant bliss. Which definitely isn't ignorant nor is it bliss. You'll see then.

I wouldn't mind.

You know what. Honestly if I could turn back time I wouldn't have even gone to NJ. Its not a fantastic school nor does it have good teachers or facilities (VERY few good ones). Oh and not to mention, it does not have good students either. Majority of whom I know, in a sense. I mean, the amount of horrible (extreme cases) students are too damn high. I'd rather rot in a girls' school like RGS or some hardcore mugger school like NUSHS. No offence, cause I would seriously have gone to either one of those cause they're obviously GOOD.

So my advice is, if you can make it, go there. And don't be like me and waste my ESIS scholarship cause its just not worth. Its just the whole damned NJ system I guess. Too much peer pressure and backstabbing and all those social issues. Compared to other elite schools I guess.

And no, I'm not badmouthing okay. When every single parent comes to talk to me I do say all the good stuff. So please, no flaming. I am just expressing my regret, that is all.