I'm here without you baby.
Friday, March 11, 2016
10:32 PM
Haish association of muslim converts singapore. So why am I here? Why am I here alone? Nobody to bring and nobody to go with. Not even close. I failed again eh. I'm a fucking failure. Show it beautifully? I tried. I really did. I tried more than I ever did before.
Why am I here with such a heavy heart? Why am I here when I already know what's it about? Reminder to self about what a failure I am?
I really wanted things to work out. Do you know how beautiful that would be? Very. But things never turn out the way I want them to right. Is it so hard? Is it so difficult to open your heart and mind to the truth? Am I crazy? Do I not speak sense?
I miss you or maybe just the memories or maybe just the feeling of being in love. Even though it was fleeting. Even though it may not have been sincere. Being cared for was nice. Being a reason for someone was nice, although I know that's not the right way of living.
I just want someone to lead me.
