So tired of the same old games.
Saturday, January 23, 2016
4:07 PM
I'M NOT ALIVE IF I'M LONELY SO PLEASE DON'T LEAVE.
Same old, same old. Just different places and different people. Same reasons I'm so sick of. Same me being vulnerable? Gullible? Stupid? C'mon I must be heartless!!! *somebody does something remotely sweet* aww that's so nice of you to care about me *heart softens* oh very easily touched and very difficult to say no.
WAS IT SOMETHING I SAID OR JUST MY PERSONALITY?
Oh but I did know right from the start so I probably could tell myself 'I told you so' but it doesn't make things any better. Working sucks because you don't really use your brain in a sense so my mind will wander. Unlike schooling, where I can keep myself busy with revision and trying not to fail.
AND I WOULD HAVE STAYED UP WITH YOU ALL NIGHT HAD I KNOWN HOW TO SAVE A LIFE.
My tutee asked me why I looked so sad haha. I said because my fish died. I can't possibly say that because my boyfriend was gonna break up with me right but ya hahaha dumby me know already still pain sia.
CUT MY HAIR CAUSE I KNOW YOU LIKE THE LONG DO.
WHAT ABOUT NOW WHAT ABOUT TODAY?
I wish I tried harder but what's the point in trying I already tried my best and my best was not enough such is fate but I guess thank god for distancing me from what is bad from me. Even if I'm sad, at least my parents are happy and at least god isn't angry at me and I don't have to be so guilty doing things I'm not supposed to do and being so secretive about everything sure it hurts but all wounds will heal it's just a great pity I failed yet again.
AND I NEVER LIKED TO ADMIT THAT I WAS WRONG.
