A levels have screwed me so much and the stress has totally gotten into me that I've started watching cartoons..... my mental capacity has just degraded to half my age oh god it's like I'm 9 again this is mad I am going mad.
Prelims was baaad for chem and math anyway. Times like this when I wish I'd gone full arts instead sigh at least I'll be failing one less subject.
Lately I've been feeling very cold, like, getting cold easily sigh. Can't stand exam venues with aircon without jacket (I almost froze to death in that one hour of chem mcq (i failed it anyways)) and even in buses and trains and shopping centres I cannot survive oh my god what is wrong with me. :(
I hate waiting sigh I wanna go RSAF nownownow ugh stupid medical my heart is ok. :( but oh well hopefully good things come to those who wait!!! As much as I try to keep my excitement to myself I still can't help it especially when I see RSAF people like every other day idk gah I want. :(
So many dreams so many aspirations I keep thinking sigh. Thinking about interviews, about life, about marriage and children and my own home blah blah such big dreams which will never come true if I flunk A levels and I have 43 days to change two failures to two distinctions but they are my weakest subjects god help me. :(