Wew two months later I'm back!!! :-) ya this private insta thing is really too addictive I would say. Because of the limited audience compared to twitter and main insta? And wordpress is so stressful i need to arrange my thoughts well and phrase them nicely. But sometimes blogger is cool for long posts and for people who actually bother to read hehe so I hope you gain some nice info here!!! If that's what you're looking for :-)

So I've been pretty good at ignoring people lately, which is a v v v bad thing I think. It makes me feel very self centred from my usual reciprocating self but I'm glad I'm doing less of that because some people really don't deserve it and they really don't deserve my time. So even though I still spend forever on insta I somehow feel that my productivity isn't as affected as compared to when I'm interacting with people? Again, self centredness sigh. But well if y'all really cared then just watch my private insta for a daily dose of my life and thoughts!!!

But other more pressing thoughts which have been bugging me lately I don't know why and I don't like it because it makes me feel rather mean :-( since when did I care oh no. I know half a year is a rather long time to get over somebody (and believe me I still think about those things on some days it's hard to forget it's hard to move on) but I really didn't think my self control game was this weak. I promise myself I will not do it. I will not let myself go that far and ruin myself and ruin you too.