Really blogging v little nowadays actually really talking casually to people v little nowadays bc v v v busy sigh. Orientation was good actually, sad that it's over but still really really worried about studies. Why is it that every other batch besides mine seems better sigh. But anyways great bunch of people haha especially having the councillor perspective like looking out for potential councillors and stuff. I see similarities in OG21'2014 and OG21'2015 like the bgoh personality. I wonder if you'll be better than bgoh hmm. Also bgoh pangsehed me for mass dance i am so pissed ugh. :( but okok la at least ogl camp we danced tgt loool. And ya omg i suck as an ogl la i never wanted to be an ogl bc bad memories of ogl-ing in jh2 bc i sucked ok i'm really not ogl material i'm sorry and half the time i was away doing elections stuff or something :((( i'm a sucker at convos but i really wish to have someone i can really talk to sigh. (Bc typical me pushing away the people who want to talk to me.)

I think i'm very mean to treat people v badly and v cold but really i don't like you please stop being so creepy it hurts bc i wish it was someone else caring so much for me i'm sorry. And then again i think why am i still feeling so down until this very day. I should stop thinking really it's not worth it no one is sigh.

This is my 1000th post since JH1 haha and i was planning on deleting posts bc blog posts are the only thing that i have never deleted since forever unlike fb and insta sooo i shouldnt remember bad things i should delete sigh it is hard to let go.