If what we had was real how could you be fine? Cause I'm not fine at all.

Gah whatever I don't start to wonder anymore. Bc need to get my life together. Feeling quite horrible bc didn't do any work today (don't count research although it was crazy tiring and I really tried but not productive so). SIM friendly today gah even more shag I can't do this anymore ugh conceeded two dumb goals dumb me.

Anyways there was this auntie in the bus this morning complaining about how the bus driver never speeds to sort of beat the light bc it was always yellow and he always stopped ugh so annoying la. I mean the auntie and the bus driver haha. Bc well AT LEAST THE BUS DRIVER CARES ABOUT OUR SAFETY YKNOW IF YOU'RE JUST GONNA COMPLAIN WHY DON'T YOU DRIVE LOL I DON'T EVEN THINK YOU CAN. So yeah deal with it. At least be grateful we have excellent public transport and don't have to wait hours just for one bus goddammit.

Anyways created a private insta haha for people who I'm actually quite/very close to so be honoured if it's you!!! Jk I suck as a friend I'm sorry.

Anyways I kinda hate it when my parents give me the I told you so talk like UGH I DON'T NEED THAT KIND OF NEGATIVITY IN MY LIFE I HAD ENOUGH AND YOU STILL WONDER WHY I TALK TO PEOPLE AND NOT PARENTS UGH. But yes thank you to those who actually asked if I was okay like genuinely :')

Anyways I realised I'm like really uh quiet lol in real life anyway like ugh don't start a convo with me please please ignore and pretend you didn't see me kinda thing but hmm I blog too much like long winded stuff too (so my private insta is a SUMMARISED version of some stuff haha practising GP skills!!) so I think is this a common thing with introverts hmm I don't talk that much to people but I talk to myself a lot.

ANYWAY idek why I'm blogging so late at night I have plansss all day everyday sigh so busy but busy is good and overworking is excellent hopefully.

It's been two weeks.