Que sera.
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
4:04 PM
Yay got my notes back I would have died if I didn't bc it's not okay to lose 5 years of notes over something that isn't even worth it. I feel bad bc I'm not taking my things back but it hurts even more sigh does it hurt you? I'll be here for you and I mean it even now.
Was having a htht with Kok bestie yesterday about life in general and planning for the future and I guess it really isn't easy to find someone with plans. Plans not only bc you have a gf therefore must start planning but really concrete life plans and goals and that makes me sad bc I'll never find someone like that.
And he says my love life is so drama lol and I said I could write a book and he said he could make a movie (backup life plans, yes such people are hard to find) so yeah if all else fails in life I might actually consider HAHA #supportlocaltalent.
Training was good today I scored two goals I think? Can't rmb omg lol but actually I was very bad la really losing my stickwork skills it's not even funny :( not to mention fitness LOL. Lunch with OG21 + Intan aka me and Eunice and Ariel HAHA one of the better days of my life I'm happy for such happy days :)
Some girl was crying and wailing in the train though I felt quite bad for her bc break up sigh I know what's it like to cry in trains and buses and taxis and public places and it sucks. But hmm wailing is scary I hope I don't have to go through that. But at least some nice stranger comforted her sigh being alone sucks.
Brings me to the point that everyone leaves it makes me sad to the point that I push people away. Like them primary school acquaintances being close to me when I'm dating their friend and boom they're all gone now. Not like I've ever been really close to anyone at any point in my life for a prolonged duration of time anyway sigh them convenience friends? Nothing and nobody deserves me and vice versa. Why do people even make an effort to be close to me just to end up leaving? Don't bother starting sigh.
He was a chapter in my book, but I was only a line in his.
ps. Even this blog post title reminds me of you bc my brain works in disgusting ways like other than the fact that que sera means what will be will be, it is also sung by Justice Crew aka some dance-y bboy crew whatever :c kay that's all I feel numb I'm not even sad or angry or disappointed anymore.