So shame on me now.

Idk sometimes i think too much and plan too much it scares me but i cant help it like i keep on running through my plans in my head for the day, the next day and so on again and again because im scared i might forget or something.

My mum says im just like her because people expect a lot from us, knowing what we're capable of. I beg to differ. We dont always have to live up to expectations. Why the unecessary stress. Why should i care about other people who actually dont care about me. -insert expletives here- expectations.

Ah i wanna learn driving asap i dont see the problem registering now so i can take my btt like on my birthday then get my pdl then ftt then boom driving!!! Stumbled upon a blog by a law student and he talked about driving haha he got it in 3 months!!! And oh. I really respect law students hahah. Dont really wanna be one though, too scary.

UGH I FEEL SO MESSED UP bc i planned my LIFE i wanna get married at 23 which means if i were to date at 19 it means i'll date for 4 years before getting married and that sounds pretty screwed up aah why do i even worry about such things now.

Feeling so ashamed but i kinda love it to be here than anywhere else. And it's really pretty cool i mean like whoa breaking statues except the biggest one and then saying it was the biggest statue which broke the smaller ones like HAHA WHERES YOUR GOD NOW.

"If there were, in the heavens and the earth, other gods besides Allah, there would have been ruin in both! But glory to Allah, the Lord of the Throne: (High is He) above what they attribute to Him!"