One more week to sealing my fate for my whole future oh my god. Just kidding even Ms Tan says A levels aren't important (in the long run I suppose) so I guess it's okay if I retain HAHA NO IT IS NOT OKAY I WILL DIE. Sigh if only I put in more effort and pon school less hurhur I guess it's a little too late for that lol but still for once I think that I'm relatively smart, like maybe my dormant-since-PSLE brain cells are finally awakening again?!?! Taking too many chances on math though didn't study for lecture test and timed practice and still managed to scrape through so I can't be that screwed for promos right? WRONG OMG I AM SO LOST IN ELL HELP.

Note to self: NEVER take up new things. Eg. relatively new NJ-IP programme, relatively new ELL syllabus BECAUSE I CAN'T FIND NO SHIT ABOUT ELL (SINGAPORE-CAMBRIDGE SYLLABUS) ONLINE (haha double negatives) but yes the fear is real :( and I'm too conditioned to the rigid textbook-smart education (that's not a really bad thing ok) :D SO GIVE ME ELL TEXTBOOKS AND TEN YEAR SERIES PLEASE (wait they probably don't even exist) haha but ELL is cool if only I really understood it :')

Sian it's only Wednesday I was already like dying yesterday just kidding I was already dying since Monday just kidding I died a long time ago this is mad I think I'm falling sick again. Wanted to write parent's letter to pon school today but I FEEL GUILTY IF I SKIP CHEM even though I don't learn anything but :( but really omg falling sick halp too much coffee hahaha I'm practically living on coffee. Kinda like how coffee keeps me just awake enough to study or zombie through lessons but not powerful enough so that I can still get a good night's sleep (but it is never enough) sigh what is life I rant too much yes I shall blog about more current less immature issues from now on in an attempt to improve my failing GP grade (even though it's too late for that :'))