So I've been sitting on this broken chair (with one missing roller) all day today and yesterday and I'm like thinking, why in all places (IMRE) do they not replace this chair because Health and Safety ???

But ya anyway, dying in research again. Did chrono ampheremetry today (do I look like I know what's that?) which involves lots of waiting so ya. I know I should be studying but I'm just so tired. And I even slept early last night ugh and I could barely get out of bed (and reached IMRE late lolol).

Idk super tired travelling from east to west of Singapore every day I'm glad I don't study in the west hahaha although central is still pretty far but it just doesn't feel as tiring travelling.

I swear I probably bled more than enough blood to like save 5 lives or more (1 bag of blood is around 250ml and saves 3 lives) gdi I'm so tired and blood makes me nauseous and go away stomach cramps can't decide between punching my abdomen or ripping my stomach out.

Idk it just doesn't feel the same anymore. To know, or at least have an idea of, who's reading what I post because, y'know, APC audience purpose context thing, I'm starting to be aware of audience and that's gross because I like to write without objectivity.

But then again I think I'll be a different person if I didn't blog, like I wouldn't be thinking of such things in life at all or like look back on life and reflect blah blah, which is probably important I guess, although my life is stupid.

Looking back I wish I didn't quit third language. Yes it was hard but, hey, it's just O levels. Looking back I wish I went to a different school maybe. Looking back I wish I didn't stop floorball. Looking back I wish I was smarter and made smarter decisions.

I think that we're too young to make decisions in life like secondary school or jc/poly or subject combinations blah blah. Or maybe it's because I regretted my decisions. Or maybe it's because I didn't know what life was like. Or maybe because I was too sheltered. I don't know. Lately, I see people not knowing what they'd like to be when they grow up because the possibilities are endless, or none at all. Closed so many doors for myself by not being able to take physics or biology and yes I regret.

But hey, regrets are part of life and I'm used to it I guess. Just make the most of what you have and don't make rash decisions. Shrugs. Who am I to say.

Met this guy from NUS Engineering in my lab yesterday haha it's cool meeting new people but I'm weird and awkward soo. Like sigh idk people ask me what my name is so I reply them back without asking what their's is omg what a noob. But yeah. NUS is pretty darn crowded now that uni term has started. Sigh will I even make it to uni.