I hear your voice when I sleep at night.
Sunday, September 28, 2014
4:05 PM
GUESS WHO IS IN SCHOOL TODAY HAHA WHAT A JOKE PW MORE LIKE PEE DOUBLE EWW HAHAHA oh well at least we're making good progress :) freaking printed 16 pages on yellow paper wrongly ugh so upsetting but at least my printer didn't screw up FOR THE FIRST TIME so all's good. Butbut promos just around the corner hurhur best time to do PW right I know.
So actually I had quite a number of stuff I wanted to say but haha I forgot. Probably going on a hiatus until end of promos/PW maybe? (Ugh promos making me fat and pimply and bad hair day all day everyday screw you)
Meep so while I'm typing this on the train (it's stalling at Simei) here's one of the many things I've thought about (remember I said I'll talk about more intellectual things HAHA this isn't gonna be helpful to my GP but oh well).
I think out of all the 17-year-olds in Singapore/the world, I think about death more than usual. No, I'm not suicidal. (Yet/I think.) But yeah idk life isn't about living for the moment, it's about living for the future. Idk if I die now I'd be screwed for eternity, literally. I hate it how I/we all seem to be chasing for unimportant eathly matters. Y'know nothing lasts. That's why I gave up on gaming I guess haha so much regret so much money wasted on @cash ugh. Maybe if I had spent more time being a better student, being a better person, I wouldn't end up in this situation but oh well. I don't even think I'm really learning from my mistakes and that makes me a really bad person and again, I'm not ready to die. Lately the people around me are dying, it's not even of old age really, so like it may just come to you anytime. And at that point in time, will you be ready? I wish I was, I wish I am.
Okay besides morbid talks, I got a kanken!!! Huehue so mainstream of me but omg I used to hate that bag but it's actually really nice :3 here's to not bringing many many heavy things to school :D (but the year's already ending so).
Heh I guess Friday was a good day thanks for the long talks and spicy food (oh wait I paid for that hahaha) but yeah. Sian I didn't mean to cry I didn't mean to let my past affect me so much.
Cause I don't think about you every single night I'll be fine without you
Can sleep tight when I'm not beside you I'm moving on
No I don't cry about you never seen tears in my eyes about you
Gonna be fine if I die without you baby I'm gone
These are the lies that I tell myself at night
These are the lies that are keeping me alive
Can sleep tight when I'm not beside you I'm moving on
No I don't cry about you never seen tears in my eyes about you
Gonna be fine if I die without you baby I'm gone
These are the lies that are keeping me alive