I wish that I could wake up with amnesia.
Saturday, August 2, 2014
11:16 PM
Today I started to think and rethink about the choices I make/made in life. And I'm just so scared that I'm doing the wrong things sigh. This was going to be a happy post but I am so worried now sigh. :(
Wow okay I have decided I hate you all of you and I am so over you ugh you all of you are so mean. It hurts to know you're happy, yeah it hurts that you've moved on. It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long. It's like we never happened, was it just a lie? If what we had was real, how could you be fine? 'Cause I'm not fine at all.
Played for Adelphe today it was funnn. Compared to Thursday's training lolol that was just tear-ible. Terrible I want to cry. But yeah today was pretty good against VJ haha but my throwing is so bad I want to die. And didn't get a clean sheet though I REALLY wanted to but ugh conceded a goal which reminded me of NUS Tenses but then again, reminds me of every single stupid goal I concede because I can feel that lately, I very lag or something sigh. :(
Quite fail because we went to VS first then went to VJ lol but my first time in VS so I didn't mind haha. VS is beautiful omg thank you government for coming up with such a beautiful layout and everything. It was so nice like RJ but on a different level haha nice on a government school level?? Idk but ya. Being tourist-y today.
But honestly I was really looking forward to today's game even though Thursday was bad hurhur. But honestly when we actually started playing I got scared LOL like the nationals kind of scared omg. But honestly the trick is to look confident even if you're not but anyway I had faith in my team so yay. My team hahaha idk man ugh.
League or no league? Ugh I hate that I trust people so easily and that I can't say no sigh. Need to get my priorities straight ugh need to get my life straight and need to excel in everything!!! Health and studies gah one I can't do anything about it, one I can, but is that good enough. My knees don't hurt but the thought of them hurting makes them hurt if that even makes sense and I know I'm into this sport which like all sports runs the risk of injury but still ugh.