Random thoughts of the week.

Sigh sigh what a dumb tortoise. Probably screwed ELL presentation and Chem lecture test but sigh I guess I tried and this screwed is probably 164920x less severe/major as (ungraded) CTs but still.

Yesterday was such a bad training day though I was looking forward to it really :( don't even know what I was doing. Don't even know where to put my face now.

This week wasn't even a full week yet I'm so tired and sick ugh. Tired and sick of life. Need to buck up man. Monday holiday, Tuesday and Wednesday MC, Thursday and Friday Sports Science Conference. Which was more interesting than last year's in my opinion but probably because I didn't attend Day 2 last year :( but this year was kinda more small scaled I guess? Fun but skipping lessons aren't thaaat fun :/

Sigh sigh I'm starting to realise there's like a huge difference in teaching styles. Lectures are a definite no-no like really baaad learning nothing half the time. Tutorials are so stressful ugh half the time I don't understand. Consolidation is the worst but then again I haven't been going for many due to reasons. Consultation is demanding but it is effective and makes me think. Help from people makes me think too and that's good but yup both are slow, painful processes. Tuition is a breeze I feel smart like I understand everything but only for that moment, like I lose all knowledge gained the moment my tutor steps out of my house ugh. Sigh sigh. Need to buck up man.

So on the way back in the bus I overheard a conversation between a mother and son (secondary level) ABOUT ECONS OMG. Like taking econs is good in JC blah blah sigh education system :(

Mmmh sometimes I don't know who to trust because people come and go so easily and well people make me doubt people and it makes me sad because I guess I like trusting people. But sigh the people whom I thought would be there for me aren't. Quite grateful for those who maybe pretty unexpectedly care though, even though we may not be close, even though distance and time has kept us apart. Thank you my legs for always standing up for me and my hands for always being by my side. HAHA JK. Really thank you my friends who have been there for me through thick and thin, good days and bad days. You shine a light on my dark side but you don't care what you see.