WOW IT'S JUNE ALREADY but guess what hahaha no holidays for me. Guess what hahaha exams in June. Idk man it's June and I'm so stressed about school and education in general???

YAH SO ANYWAY IT'S JUNE RIGHT I really need to start umm keeping fit??? LOL. I just saw a stupid slimming ad and that 21 year old woman is 48kg (but she still looks fat imo) AND I'M ALSO 48KG OMG AND I'M 17. And my sister is 21 and she is also 48kg help. It's like in 2 years I gained 8kg yknow how depressing that is. It's like eating my cat. Even my cat lost weight (from 8kg to 7.3kg). Omaigad since it's the start of a new month I can now start my abs one month workout thing HAHA. (The last time I did it I think I stopped at day 23 lol much sad.) But oh well why do I even care urgh nobody to look pretty for now I can just be fat and pimple-y lulz.

I know I (think) I said I'd stop counting but week 3. It has been three weeks without you. I don't know how I survive. I don't know how I'm going to survive. That feeling when you give your all for nothing? Yeah. So used to everything coming down to nothing; used to silence that cuts me to the core. Sobs. Musn't think or I'll cry again. Sobs. Why do my thoughts keep drifting back to you.

Aaand here's the part where I pick myself up and tell myself that I hate you lol much lies. :( but some of the lies are becoming truths I guess? I don't love you I don't need you I don't ever wanna see you again. Oh well. It has come to the point where I wouldn't want to get back with you and it kinda makes me sad. Because *sigh* I invested so much in us.

Okay whatever since it's June let's begin afresh :) just one and a half years more and life would be a lot better (at least for awhile). So yups. I've been taking too many pictures of sunrises and it would be a waste for them to stay in my phone (with fast depleting memory) so I might as well post them here...? Yayyy perks of living in Pasir Ris hah. Nice sunrises every morning. :)

Funny how we never got to do these romantic things like watching the sunrise and chilling at the beach (?) I mean like it's not even far from our houses. Lol you never even ever send me home (not that I ever asked and not that I wanted to but you get my point) even though we lived like <5km away from each other??? It would have been nice but aye I guess you're the self-centred kind and I wonder why I was too blind to see that. Yeah whatever man someday I'll find someone better. Better for me, not better than you. There might be a difference, who knows. But yeah someday. Feeling pretty sick of all this love and relationship cra* (lack of a better word with the same effect and I sensored it because I am minding my language). Yeah it doesn't feel nice being alone but what's the point of being together if it never lasts. Much pessimist. Very truth.

"She said if he's looking for love, she don't wanna be found."