Aye my blog views for May is 1/27 of my total blog views (that's like 1100+ views out of 27000 views btw I know my math is bad) and my blog has been around for, like, 4 years now hahaha thanks guys I know my stupid life right now is really worth reading LOL. (Stupid life right now thoughts: I hateee seeing couples around sigh I get soo angry and upset in my head :( excluding the couples I ship of course but yeah. Gawd. Being alone after all this time is tough.)

So this thought crossed my mind just now about my KBM4 religious textbooks which I gave Ariff and my parents were asking me to give them to Mahathir because they read our text convos blah blah. But I already gave Ariff even before they knew it and I'm so happy because that is probably the only right thing I did in my life and I am so glad it happened. Like hah first time I had better judgement than my parents. Lol first and last time probably. And I am slightly upset because of my parents' usual lecture about how you can't trust people so much blah blah. Omg I get it okay. This is a cruel world. You use people and people use you. That's it. Sigh. Maybe they only see people using me but what if I have been using people too? Then am I not deserving of this treatment? Sigh. Sometimes I think I believe in reciprocating too much.

Anyway I won't be tweeting this post like I usually do because I tweeted the lyrics of this post before heh heh. On a side note, if you haven't listen to The Cab - Lock Me Up EP, you should!!! It's nice :))) and stuck in my head hehee.

Research is so tiring I think the travelling really kills me (and my wallet). But its funnn. I feel smart haha jkjk I learn new things. And my supervisor is niceee la I mean like who takes the stairs in IMRE anyway??? Stairs aka confusing escape route :x and he tells me about nice places to eat around IMRE hahaha (not NUS Business definitely but it's the nearest and I don't mind). And the IMRE security guards are nice too, they remember me from last year :))) and me likey the internet at IMRE :) here's to a good research year :D

Hahaha society is weird. People judge when they know, but when they're oblivious, they're fine. A long time ago I posted about sitting in public transports and people not sitting beside me, depending on whether I was wearing a headscarf etc etc. Urgh judgersss haha jk. It's implicit but it's there I guess. Even that picture going around Twitter a long time ago about someone in the US (probably?) experimenting on this implicit theory hahahha. It is true, just saying. Like, did you know, what I tweeted was from the Holy Quran hahaha it's beautiful and it's true and everyone could relate to it but nobody knew that so it was fine, no flaming, no judgers hahaha. So like yeah, Islam is beautiful and it's the truth.

And yes, although I'm dying under all the pressure from all my commitments, I will never ever give up Diploma in Islamic Studies. It's beautiful knowledge that I learn, even better than in school. If not for it, I don't know how worse off I'll be man. Thank you for guiding me all these years. I want to be a better Muslim.

"But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you;
and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you.
And Allah Knows, while you know not." (Al-Baqarah verse 216)