So this post isn't really about today. Partly only anyway. So happy I didn't have to take the EHS test!!! (I really hope they won't make me come back on Thursday due to unforseen circumstances though.) But I wasted my day sadly. And CTs makeup are next week omg I need to studyyy. And I have to go IMRE again tomorrow. Do you know how far that is it's even further than school for me. :(

Urgh kinda upset because I really wanna board in Term 3 I mean like for the first time I kinda really have friends now but nooo can't board. And like imagine how much time I'll have minus all the travelling time from the east of Singapore to the west of Singapore every day. But whatever man. I kinda accept the fact that I'll never be able to board if it's not compulsory. So much for parents supporting boarding in my Council application.

So much for parents supporting my current mental and emotional state. Okay fine it's not difficult for me to move on. I mean it's not easy but of course it's all in the mind. But still. Everywhere I go I see your smiling face. Every song I sing I sing in hopes you're listening. Loljk. But seriously. I hate the east of Singapore. Everywhere I go like literally we've been there together. We've been there in happy times. Do you know how much it hurts. I want to run away from my life. Don't you know you're everything I had?

But thinking through, it's kinda crazy, this thing we've been in. I don't know if it's normal or I'm just starting to realise but people actually help and offer to carry my tray/clear my plate??? Like that has never happened in our time together??? Come to think of it Jazzmen cleared my plate at MJ that day, Bryan carried my tray at KFC last week, and Dian Ang cleared my tray at NUS today like whuuut why are people so nice to me I'm not used to this.

Life is weird. Weird things are happening. But you still suck. And I don't wish you the best in life because I suck too.