Day 3. Guess who couldn't sleep last night lol me. So many thoughts running through my mind I swear I didn't want to think about it. I didn't want to think about things. I don't even know why I'm counting the days. It might as well take forever.
Truthfully, I can get over it. Temporarily, at least. Hoping that I'll be able to hold myself together until after CTs. Until after promos. Heck, until after As. And I cannot retain. Cannotttt. My love for you is strong but my resolve is stronger hah.
Lol the only reason I sound fine right now is because I'm typing this while on the way to school and I need to sound fine right. I need to look fine too so yup. Still dying on the inside. Doubt I can pay attention at all. Two hours of sleep. What a joke. My life is a joke.
To the girl he now loves,
Take care of him because maybe I didn't, I'm sorry. Support him in everything because he's the most insecure person I know, especially under a lot of pressure. Always smile for him. Take lots of pictures. Don't eat Japanese food cause he hates it. Give him your time. Call him, text him, skype him, meet him, whatever. Surprise him. Don't run away even if you don't mean it. Let him win arguments because it's not worth getting angry. And finally, last long.
Haha okay after typing that I am not fine. I cannot cry because this floorball guy senior is sitting opposite me and that would be bad haha. Okay I shall not think so much now. Thinking hurts. But I don't want to forget.