If people actually really wanna know the reason why I'm close to him (I wouldn't say so close), here's why: Because I choose to.

Because from the very first day (or second day) (or the day even before) we met I tried. I really tried. Haha yes I use a lot of my courage and bravery on him but it was and is my choice, and I don't regret it. Why? Because my efforts are appreciated. And there's nothing sweeter than being appreciated for your efforts. :)

His (extremely long) message in my ego booster is the reason why I still try, why I still care, up till today. Fifty four days ago, that is something that won't change. It's the reason why, whatever that's between us, I don't want to break it. Even if I have mixed feelings. Even if either one of us have feelings. I will deny them all. I can't afford to believe them. Because things can only stay the same, or be worse from now on. And how do I know? Been there, done that. (Oh, and I will try to erase that memory of being really close to him it scared me though that was exhilarating but it was my fault lol but that was too close like closer than I imagined help I need to burry myself in embarrassment.)

Anywaysss, even though OG days are over, and things are no longer the same as they were before, I'm glad things happened. I'm thankful for the memories. I am thankful for him putting up with my stupid pickup lines heh. And I am grateful for the silent support he gives me. And I will do the same. Why? Because he means a lot to me.

His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes, and if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie.