I know it's stupid because you'll never read this, what more even think about me. As much as I don't show it, I miss you. I really do. Why won't you reply me? And the reason I find it so hard to move on is because you never really told me, have you? I never really left, have I? I'm loyal to you. All our promises still stand. I will never leave until you tell me to. But you never did. You never did say yes or no. Is it so difficult? You still need me - yes or no? It's not fair to me. It's not fair to me to be feeling like this. To be torn between staying with you or leaving you because truthfully I still want you but you don't need or want me anymore, right? I don't even have an answer to that. Why are you doing this to me?
Such an utopian dream for OG days to last forever because as much as I hate to admit it, we are drifting apart. It feels as though I'm the only one who still cares but I've had enough I don't want to be the only one trying. People say Councillors tend to forget who their old friends were, or don't have time for them anymore. I don't want that to happen to me. I'm really trying. But it seems that 47th SC are the people I'm becoming close to. And OG21 floorballers, that's all. Really. And someone but I'm just counting on what he said in my orientation ego booster which was ages ago but it's okay I still believe.
Why is my world falling apart?
All I know is since yesterday is everything has changed.