We'll be counting stars.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
4:08 PM
Holidays that don't seem like holidays haha what's new. What's new is that instead of just going back to school, I go to NUS IMRE which is sooo cool! Although it is further than school but ohwells. ESTaR is gonna be fun hehe I just know it :3 though there is this test I'll need to study for in like one week and I have no idea what it is even about uh oh. Pretty darn excited I'm a few babysteps closer to my dream job :')
Besides that, I went shooting today. If not counting last Thursday, this is the first time I'm shooting in like 3 months. Feeling pretty sick and lethargic and tired lately so I apologize for my low standards but hey, 3 months is a long time and at least I don't, in a sense, "deprove". But meh. I was this close to quitting. Is getting a rifle stand that tempting to make me stay? Apparently yes. Sigh. This defies all my logic. Why stay when I have never really been cared about? In terms of equipment, I've gotten them all the last. I don't interact well, although that's my fault. Why can't I just start anew? Why must everyone tempt me and compliment me? If "wasted talent" is even a compliment.
(Gosh I'm blogging about so many things today to make up for the lack of posts and since I need to pass time in the train from Clementi to Pasir Ris do you know how long that is!!)
So yeah while on my way to NUS IMRE, the bus passed by NUS High (obviously) and now, more than ever, I regret. Why did I let such small insignificant incidents affect my choice? I wish I knew what I know now. I loved that school. It was the only school I went to for open house. I went there for Maths Olympiad a few years back too. Why didn't I appeal there, if not RGS? I didn't even know NJ existed. NUS High is just...so...beautiful... And in terms of uniform, neither are the lesser of two evils, in my opinion. Heck, I would have gone to SST too, if not RGS, if not NUS High, if not VJ IP. Such regrets. Such wasted opportunities.
The number of dengue cases in Singapore is too damn high. Especially in the Nort and East, according to Today paper. God I'm scared. I'm sick.
I've been wasting too much time in life. I've been wasting too much life. Just hoping that my decisions now, although not the best I could have made, would be worth it.