Still thinking about it from time to time. Just, like, it crosses my mind. I don't know. Is it upsetting? Well it sure is, on a separate matter altogether, waiting for something to happen and in the end I just don't care whether it does or not. Wondering if I'm making all the same mistakes again. Feeling like I should sit back and observe people like I did before rather than have people observe me.
24 hours ago I loved.
12 hours ago I waited.
Now I give up. Some things are those "in the moment" kind of things. And in this moment, there's nothing so forget it.
Where are you I need to speak to you and get my mind off some things. Need to find the effort to speak to people because maybe, I hate it when things come too easily. And then again, it's too difficult I give up.
Yes I must have been missing long convos. And convos from long ago. What am I doing trying to re-enact.
"I don't love you like I did yesterday." Too much meaning.