Hmm. So my mum is lecturing my sister on gaming addictions because, well, LoL is more than half her life. It's crazy. Either that or youtube/9gag and whatnot. And my mum was like, "Ask your sister how she did it." Meaning me and how I managed to get 'un-addicted' to maple.

Truthfully, I don't know. Or I don't remember. Or I don't choose to remember. Maybe because I broke off with Lakh. Maybe because of my overwhelming schoolwork. Maybe because I realised my dreams. But either way, it's true, leave or you'll regret it for the rest of your life. Gaming does no good. You are not a child anymore. Your life isn't supposed to be all fun and games.

Actually, looking back, I regretted. If not for maple, I probably could have gotten that 'Best in Malay Primary 5' if not for Atiqullah. And that 'Best Overall Pupil' instead of Jing Ling. And, well, Top PSLE Student in Singapore too, if I tried. If not for maple, I would have never gone to NJ. What more heard of it. I would have never gotten into any relationship at all and get myself wasted and ruin my dignity.

But you see, being a gamer girl is cool. But cool isn't worth you life and your afterlife. I agree, it was kinda immature, my whole life. But we all learn from our mistakes right? And we also learn from others' mistakes.

Sure I'm not those gone case addicts, but it's because I choose to. Why don't you try uninstalling whatever game you're addicted to, make yourself busy for a few months, and soon, you'll find that it'll be too troublesome to redownload haha.

Sure I still think about it sometimes, but I also think about how 'not worth' it is to continue. I can live my life regretting that I never got to level 200, but I cannot live my life regretting not achieving my fullest potential.

I'm not perfect but I keep trying. Sigh. Why am/was I so naive.