Tell me how to get back to summer paradise with you.
Thursday, March 14, 2013
9:48 PM
Tired. Physically. Don't wanna go shooting but I guess I will, unwillingly, tomorrow.
Tired. Mentally. So many expectations. So many deadlines.
Tired. Emotionally. I should just stop thinking and go cry in a hole. Nobody needs to know my problems. Nobody cares anyway. Sigh. Somehow the memories are always what I miss the most.
And I go back to December all the time. All my emotional highs in November-December huh. Always makes up for the rest of the shitty year.
Everything feels so distant now. The life I used to lead. The memories I had. And most importantly, you.
Lost my motivation for everything. Back to square one. I shall be on my own again.
Sigh. I really want to cry. Just so emotionally drained now. It's okay to cry if I'm sad right? Why is everything so different now? Where did I go wrong?
And the worst part is I'm just being selfish and demanding and overly attached. Screw this shit. But well yeah. I'll be right here whether now or never for you.
I wish I could just call you. Evenings in London never felt so sad, I wish you were here to share these days so bad.
