So far from where I used to be.
Monday, February 4, 2013
7:54 AM
Wanted to remember
Never missed a second
Now I wish I could forget.
Sorry. I'm really sorry. Feeling insecure as hell again. Torn between two. Save myself or let you win? Hurt you or hurt me? Trying to find a middle line between two. You don't deserve this, but do I deserve what comes along with this? Am I thinking too much? I don't want things to end like they did before. Am I desperate? What if I screw up? Am I running away from my problems? Am I delaying the inevitable? Guys and girls can never be just friends. Is that true? What if what everyone says is true? That things won't work out? Should I distance myself? Is it too late for that?
ERMAHGAWD I WILL CRY WEEP WEEP.
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage.
Edit: Sigh. After much thinking, I realised I shouldn't put you through this.
Let me go and I will run.
