Hurhur. Here's a peek at what's going on in my mind. And yes, its a conversation.

See this is all your fault.
What did I do?!
Yeah who was the one who was so sleepy??
But I was REALLY tired.
C'mon you know you could have pushed a little more BUT NO, you had to give some bitchy attitude. Will you ever change?
Well tell me how to then.
You know yourself best! Its been 3 years! 3 long years!! And still nothing??
I don't know anymoreee. I wish you were a stranger I could disengage.
Stop it with the song references. Stop feeling so sorry and do something!
Like what!
Improve yourself perhaps. Just do something and stop thinking!
I already did chem okay! In the morning! I'm agitated I can't do anything! I ate without feeling like eating! I'm sick but I feel like nothing!
Lol write a poem?
Lovesick. That's next year.
But the inspiration is here.
No! All those stupid poems end up in tragedies.
Which reminds me of this Twitter deja vu yeah.
Which pretty much lasts for the same period of time.
Aren't you gonna do anything about it? Prove them wrong! Cry also for what.
What's the use of proving people when its only 50% effort.
Then prove yourself worthy. C'mon, you know you can do it. Nobody's better than you.
Yeah right everybody has a better emotional stability than me.
YOU ARE NOT GONNA RUIN YOUR FUTURE. YOU ARE GOING TO CHANGE. NOW. YOU ARE GONNA BE WORTHWHILE AND PRICELESS.
And, in the end, I'll still lose because they thought it wouldn't last all along, and they were right.
Make a change, and breakaway.
I'd like to be everything you want.
No, just no. Be a better version of yourself.
I won't let you down.

Troubleshooting101: When angry, lost, or depressed, always think happy thoughts.