Cause I'm still trying to figure it out.
Friday, November 16, 2012
6:10 PM
Feeling so raw and empty. Sigh. Good thing today or else I'd never have gotten it out. I don't have guts, I said it because it was the right thing to do. And if I don't, things would turn bad. I'm just so selfish. If I had the guts I would have done this three days ago.
And nothing ever goes as planned. Though I rehearsed like a thousand times in my head. Ohwell.
My head hurts. My mouth still tastes like the dentist. You should be honoured if someone likes you? Man, I feel like shit.
I don't want any of this yet I do. I don't want to be so pessimistic yet worst case scenarios are important. Its like the truth just slapped me in the face.
I know me and my heart got crazy issues.
Sometimes I wish I were ugly and stupid for a day and see how many people actually like me.
