And all the wants,
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

Gah. I give up. Too much. Can't go on there, can't start here. Times like this I wanna disappear. There's nothing left. What should I say here? I'm sorry. I've said that many times. Gah. Stop cryinggg. For once, I shall try to do something right. Believe me. But why do I wanna stay when I'm gonna mess it up again? Cause I'll choose it right this time. And hopefully bring myself to the right destination. Where there is desire, there is hope. (I made that up) Gah. It makes sense. Kinda.

I messed up once, 
I messed up twice,
So how many times are we gonna try again?

And I'll give up everything since I have nothing to lose anymore. But then again, if there's nothing to lose, then anything works? Nooo. Why? Cause... I can't answer it. Cause I don't know if I'll ever come back? Fated? Gah. I can if I want to. But...proving myself...where everything went wrong...that's just pure satisfaction LIKE A BOSS. I want to make things better and say "HAH IN YOUR FACE". But what if things go wrong? Then I'll do my best. I've never been so determined. I never knew I had so many haters. Why give them the satisfaction of knowing they succeeded? I will triumph above all~

I know I've been a real bad girl. 

I can look back at my previous posts and see how much regret and guilt I have carried all these while. Why was I so blind? Blinded by love. Hah. My first poem. I am afraid. I am scared. I am literally paralyzed by fear. And yet, persevere!! God is Most-Forgiving. Only He will know my heart and soul. Trust no one but God <3

This time, I'm gonna go back to the girl I was on the night you found me.

When everything is wrong, fall back to the most fundamental and basic. Most refined and uncorrupted religion <3

#feelingveryempoweredthankstoGod