A hundred stabs of Love
Monday, November 1, 2010
11:53 PM
1. I love you, you love me
2. Is there another third party?
3. After all that we've been through
4. Is it even worth fighting for you?
5. Never have I ever felt this way
6. There's nothing left to say
7. There's nothing left for you and I
8. Is this the final goodbye?
9. Maybe I'm too blind to see
10. Maybe I'm just not ready
11. Why do I even keep trying?
12. When it always ends up with me crying?
13. Should I even cry for you?
14. When I've cried for others too
15. And I'm tired of being all alone
16. And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
17. If we ever meet again
18. I hope I wont have to go through all this pain
19. Because maybe
20. You're gonna be the one that saves me
21. If there's nothing left for me to do
22. Why am I still here with you?
23. Its tearing up my heart when I'm with you
24. But when we are apart I feel it too
25. You can't stand the jealousy
26. Why do you still want to be with me?
27. I'm sorry I'm not who you thought I was
28. But now I'm really at a loss
29. Maybe that little spark of jealousy
30. Is bigger than what you see
31. Picking up the pieces of my heart
32. How i wish we didn't start
33. And somehow it seems to me that you are miles away
34. When you don't even bother about what I say
35. Maybe deep inside you really hate me
36. I know I'm just too blind to see
37. I used to think that we were forever
38. But now it seems that it is for never
39. Remembering those times when we first started
40. It makes me wonder how I could end up so brokenhearted
41. I wish upon a falling star
42. That you were somewhere not so far
43. I don't know if you'll ever need me
44. Cause my own future I can't see
45. I guess we can never be
46. When you don't even sound seriously sorry
47. I wish I can just runaway from this world
48. I wish I won't ever miss your face
49. What is left of us?
50. When all that's bearable has passed
51. I know of somebody who broke my heart before
52. But at least he mended it before anyone saw
53. I think I'm stupid for falling for you
54. I think I'm stupid to let you go too
55. I take a shaky breath in
56. And wipe my tears before they're seen
57. And suddenly I feel myself falling into emptiness
58. Oh the lonely darkness
59. The pain is so unbearable
60. Now I know how I'm so breakable
61. And now you see the real me
62. Run away and let me be
63. I'm not as strong as I was years ago
64. But I'll find the courage to let you go
65. I've been thinking for some time now
66. But telling you I don't knnow how
67. Everyday is just pretend
68. Only once have you held my hand
69. Sometimes I just can't find the strength to carry on
70. Sometimes I wish I was never born
71. And all the roads we have to walk are winding
72. And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
73. I try to hold myself together
74. But I fall apart everytime I think about her
75. Why do I even bother about you?
76. You don't even know what to do
77. Sometimes I feel like I just wanna die
78. When all you do is make me cry
79. And I don't even understand myself
80. Maybe you should just try to help yourself
81. I think I'm sick and tired of all this
82. Those happy times are all I miss
83. You're sick and tired of me
84. Why don't you just go away and let me be?
85. I think its best for us to break
86. Its for our own personal sake
87. If you cry because of this stupid post
88. You haven't seen what ruined me most
89. Enough is enough this has to end
90. Can I even consider you as a friend?
91. You're building me up just to break me down
92. You turn my smile into a frown
93. Every single freaking day
94. The worsening pain never goes away
95. You know how I feel about you?
96. You're not the person I can turn to
97. I cannot think of what more to say
98. But right now you ruin my day, everyday
99. I don't know if you remembered or forgot or chose to ignore
100. But this is our 100th day together. And I'm sorry I can't say that I love you more than I did before.